Sharing: The Life~

It has been few days only. But I don't know why, I feel like it seems to be like years... I miss his voice... Out of sudden, while performing my Isyak prayer just now, my tears burst out. I feel like I have not heard the voice for a long time...

After I finished my prayer, I dialed the numbers. I tried very hard to convince myself to not show up the "crying voice" while calling him. But, it is out of my control when he picked up the phone and said,

"Hi my baby, how are you?"

"I'm fine daddy. How are you then?"

When I heard his voice answering my call cheerfully, I began to smile. And the conversation goes well with many cheerful and exciting stories. Alhamdulillah. =) Allah had eases the way. If my father answered my call with his usual voice, I believe, I'll cry out more loudly.

Somehow, I do believe the reasons of having my hands full is not strong enough. Having this humdrum life in UTP with academic matters and other personal things are not a valid reason to just forget a while about my flesh and blood. And I thanks Allah for giving me the lose heart feeling which had took me back to my parents even though I  seems like to have a head like a sieve about them for about two-three days only.

Life So Far

The fifth week of our academic calendar is just about to leave. Seems like times had gone so fast but yet, the progress of things need to completed is not that fast and furious. Sometimes, I can feel that I am to be up to my neck in something for nothing!

However, I do believe the strength will always come through prayers. But when I looked back into Chapter 10 verse 12 of our Holy Quran, seems like I have been pointed out due to my own negligence. Astaghfirullah....

"And when affliction touches a man, he calls on Us, whether lying on his side or sitting or standing; but, when We remove his affliction from him, he passes on as though he had never called on Us on account of an affliction that touched him. Thus is what they do, made fair-seeming to the extravagant."

[10:12]

I still have more weeks to go. And I do believe, with this limited times, I must try to fall on my own feet in order to ensure everything goes well. And I would like to thanks one of my comrades for giving me a song entitled Jangan Menyerah by D' Masiv which helps me to have some motivation and inspiration while doing my tasks. May Allah ease and bless all the way, InshaAllah.. =)

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah
Dapatkan cobaan yang berat
Seakan hidup ini
Tak ada artinya lagi

Syukuri apa yang ada
Hidup adalah anugerah
Tetap jalani hidup ini
Melakukan yang terbaik

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
Kebesaran dan kuasanya
Bagi hambaNya yang sabar
Dan tak kenal Putus asa

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: The Rise~

Four weeks had passed and today, the fifth week just started. Questioning myself on what are the things that I've done, absolutely I need to istighfar and keep on renewing my niat. La hau la wala qu wata illa billah... Somehow, I did strayed from the right path without realize it during the moment.

Our Sisters and Brothers

Looking at what currently happen with our sisters and brothers in middle east, somehow I am grateful for being a Malaysian. Living in a harmony country even sometimes there are little bit "unexpected" situations happened, I believe most of our youngsters today never think of any methods in order to maintain the peaceful and tranquility of our country. Most of them keep on making themselves busy with such nonsense matters such as illegal racing, singing competition, partying, miss pageant competition and many other else which somehow did not brings any good impacts towards bringing up our country to what we called as develop country. 

I am quite impressed when I know the facts that most of the protesters in Egypt that lead to Hosni Mubarak stepped down as a president are those amongst my age. The spirit and courage that they have in order to change their leader is somehow very amazing since they already think about their future in young age where the other youngsters in the other countries still turn a blind eye into this kind of matter. Those young Egyptians are willing to fight with their tooth and nail in order to ensure there is no more way for Hosni Mubarak to continue leading the country on whatever reasons.

Domino Theory

Not many days after Hosni Mubarak stepped down as president of Egypt and been greeted with a huge outburst of joy by thousands in Cairo's Tahrir Square, more and more countries nearby seem to face almost the same situation. 

From e-mail that I received yesterday, the Moroccans are expected to protest nationwide to demand King Mohammed to give more independence to the government and judiciary. As for Libya, 200 dead and 800 wounded as military use automatic weapons to disperse anti-dictator Gaddafi protests and in lieu to this, 50 Libyan Muslim religious leaders have issued an appeal for security forces to stop the killing.

And in Bahrain, protesters occupied symbolic Pearl Square and from the news that I read, the conditions in Bahrain are getting worse since the government had instructed the security force to react towards the protesters. New anti-regime protests also occurred in Algeria. These bloodiest of multiple revolts that currently rocking the Arab world somehow remind me of Domino Theory, which literally is a theory of one event will set off a train of similar events to the nearby area.

Conclusion

What gonna happen next? 

Only He knows~

What we gonna do?

Ask ourselves..

Am I gonna be the observer ONLY?

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Stress? ~

As I trying to complete my assignments and read few online news this morning, an article entitled More docs to be trained to treat mental depression inside The Star Online did captured my attention. Somehow I feel the article sound funny, but after a few seconds, I had a feeling of sympathy to those people outside that facing this kind of situation. 

I cannot avoid the sadness feeling that arise inside me after I realized the reality that more and more of our people had turned their life into "zero value" due to depression and stress. And I do believe, instead of lack of attention from people around them, the needs to have a good financial status had indirectly turned this type of people to become more workaholic and forget about any other essence of life in order to achieve financial freedom. The increasing of living cost nowadays is another factor that had indirectly contribute to this stressful life.

However, after I have some sharing with few of my friends regarding this phenomena, I had realized something about stress and workloads. It is not the workloads that contribute to stress and depression, but stress and depression are the results of someone failure in managing their daily tasks and activities. This is why there is a quote saying that "free times do kills".

Thus, as a khalifah of this world, it is necessary for everyone of us to be able to prioritize our works accordingly in order to avoid any depression due to last minutes work. In addition, as what Allah had mentioned in Chapter 103 of our holy Quran, all of us are surely in loss, accept those who believe and do good, and exhort one another to truth, and exhort one another to patience.

As a conclusion, in order to avoid stress and depression, never ever walk alone in this path without Him, but make sure that we have a close and strong relationship with our Creator, Allah swt. In any situations, in any moments, anytime, everywhere, always remember Him as He had promised, "Remember me, I will remember you".

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

The Eight Benefits~

It has been quite a long time after I wrote my last entry.Alhamdulillah, Allah has made it easier when life is hard. All the praise is to Allah, and may all the journey ahead full with His blessings. :)

As for this time, I would like to share about a story of Hatim Al-Asam, one of our Sufi Muslim. He had accompanied his friends, Shaqiq Al-Balkhi for almost thirty years and when it comes to the moment where Shaqiq asked him on what he gained from this thirty years course, he just answered that he gained EIGHT benefits. Sounds weird? Here we go~! :P

When Shaqiq asked him to mention them, below are Hatim's answer:

First, 

I observed the creation and saw that everyone had loved one another and passionately desired whom he loved and longed for. Some of the beloved accompany the lover up to the brink of sickness and death and others to the gate of the graveyard. All of them return and leave them alone. No one goes into the coffin with them. I looked into the matter and said to myself: 'The best beloved is that which would enter the tomb with the lover to console him'. I found it to be nothing else then good works, so I took this as my beloved, to illuminate my grave for me and to comfort me in it and not leave me alone.

Second,

I saw people were following their lusts and hastening towards the desires of their souls; I meditated on the saying of Allah (God) "But as for whoever has feared the majesty of his Lord and has refrained his soul from lust, truly the Garden shall be his dwelling place". Convinced that the Quran was true and right, I began to deny my soul (its pleasures) and hurried to combat it and refuse it its passionate desires, until it enjoyed real satisfaction in obedience to Allah the Exhalted.

Third,

I saw that every human being is trying their best to accumulate as much as they can from this world and then holding onto it strongly. I meditated on the Quranic verse "What is with you must vanish; what is with Allah must endure". So I gave freely my worldly possessions for His sake by distributing them among the poor so that it would be my provision in the future with Him the Exalted.

Fourth,

Some people I observed think that their dignity and honour lie with their family and large clans. Others claimed honour and dignity in abundance of wealth and children and they are proud of it. Some believe in honour and power lies by appropriating the wealth of others, doing injustice to them and shedding their blood. Others consider dignity by spending wealth extravagently and in a foolish manner. I meditated on the saying of Allah: "The most honoured of you in the sight of Allah is he who is the most righteous of you". I chose righteousness for myself, convinced that the Quran is right and true and the claims and opinions of those people (at the time) are false and temporary.

Fifth,

I found people slandering each other and speaking ill of one another out of envy of fortune, power and knowledge. I meditated on the saying of Allah: "It is We Who divide their livelihood among them in the life of this world". I realised that the dividing of livelihood is entirely in the hands of Allah since the beginning of time. Therefore I never envied anyone and was satisfied with what Allah had given me.

Sixth,

I saw people becoming enemies of one another for different reasons. I meditated upon the saying of Allah: "Verily Satan is an enemy to you, so treat him as a enemy". I become aware that enmity with anyone but Satan was not permissible.

Seventh,

I saw everyone working hard exhausting themselves in obtaining food and sustenance, tempted by doubts and forbidden things. They degrade themselves in humiliation. I pondered over the saying of Allah: "There is no creature on earth but its sustenance is dependent on Allah". I knew that my livelihood is guaranteed by Allah.

Eigth,

I saw everyone relied on a created thing, some on currency, some on wealth and property, some on trade and craft and some on creatures like themselves. I meditated on the saying of Allah: "And whosoever places his reliance on Allah sufficient is Allah for him. Allah will surely accomplish His purpose. Verily for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion. I therefore placed full trust in Allah (We should all try to do the same). He is sufficient for me and He is the best Disposer of affairs.

After this point, Shaqiq had said something. Can you guess what is it? :D

"May Allah bless you and grant you success. I looked into the Old and New Testament, the Zabur (Psalms of David) and the Quran and have found that the four books revolve around these eight benefits. Whoever works according to them is working according to these four books". 

 Credit to iluvislam.com

p/s: Jazakallahu khairan to my dear Hafsah for sharing of this story. :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Bagaimana Ye?

Alhamdulillah... Cuti sempena Tahun Baru Cina kali ini turut disertai dengan khabar gembira yakni mantan masu'lah dan juga salah seorang daripada rakan sekelas telah selamat mendaki tangga yang kedua dalam maratib amal iaitu Baitul Muslim. Semoga rumah tangga yang dibina dilimpahi dengan keberkatan dan semoga cinta yang bertaut berkekalan hingga ke syurga. Amin ya Rabb...

Berbicara soal rumah tangga, saya agak terpanggil untuk berkongsi tentang perbincangan kami sesama sisters semasa dalam perjalanan pulang dari majlis walimah mantan masu'lah kami di Batu Kawan tiga hari yang lalu. Berkisar tentang keikhlasan dan kebergantungan sepenuhnya kerana dan kepada Illahi, sejujurnya saya yakin bukan mudah untuk mendidik hati agar menjadi selembut itu.Ditambah lagi buat masa ini, saya sedang menonton series Ketika Cinta Bertasbih, yang mana saya rasakan terlalu sinonim dengan realiti hidup yang sebenar yakni rasa hati seorang yang bernama wanita, saya juga merasakan semakin sukar sebenarnya untuk mendidik hati supaya senantiasa bertawakal dan pasrah dengan segala ketentuan yang pastinya sudah tercatat di Lauh Mahfuz.

Di Satu Sisi

"Sewajarnya, akak rasa memang perlu untuk kita mendidik hati, bahawa si suami itu adalah milik Allah sepenuhnya dan bukan milik kita," ujar Kak S (bukan nama sebenar) ketika dalam perjalanan pulang dari Batu Kawan ke Tronoh. Pada saat itu, saya sedang menceritakan kisah seorang sahabat yang terlalu setia dengan sahabatnya, bahkan keduanya berkahwin dengan jejaka yang sama atas permintaannya sendiri.

"Siapalah suami kita, jika kita mahu memikirkan hak kita ke atasnya, berbanding dengan hak Allah ke atas dirinya. Bukankah dengan bermadu itu kesabaran itu bakal diuji, dan seandainya kita berjaya mengatasinya, terlalu besar nikmat dan ganjaran yang menanti kita di sana nanti?" sambungnya lagi.

Jujur, saya mengakui akan kebenaran kata-kata Kak S, tetapi buat masa ini, hakikat itu rasanya masih teramat sukar untuk diterjemahkan dalam amalan di dunia realiti. 

Di Sisi Kedua

Saya ingin memetik kata-kata Ana dalam series KCB yang sedang saya tonton ketika ini kepada suaminya tatkala perasaan cemburu menyelubungi dirinya lantaran berita yang tersebar luas mengatakan bahawa Azzam itu telah mengambil Qanita sebagai isteri keduanya.

"Apa kamu cemburu An?" soal Azzam.

"Mas, bukankah cemburu itu didorong oleh rasa cinta Ana yang mendalam kepada Mas?" soal Ana kembali.

Penutup

Melihat kepada dua sisi yang berbeza ini, saya semakin merasakan bukan mudah untuk mendidik hati supaya sentiasa pasrah dan bertawakal dengan segala ketentuan yang terjadi. Tambahan pula, apabila saya teringat akan kata-kata seorang sahabat,

"Kita kena sentiasa ingat, nak kahwin kerana apa. Kerana yang bernama suami itu bukanlah milik kita sebenarnya. Kalau betul kerana Allah, pasti kita boleh ikhlaskan hati, kalau benar ditakdirkan perkara yang paling kita takuti itu bakal terjadi."

Opps, saya hanya mampu terdiam. @_@

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Sinopsis~

Alhamdulillah, dua minggu telah pun berlalu. Semoga setiap detik yang berlalu meninggalkan kebaikan yang berpanjangan dan bakal dikira dengan perhitungan yang baik di akhirat kelak.

Menyusuri hari-hari yang berlalu, dunia dikejutkan dengan pergolakan yang berlaku di Mesir. Dan pastinya, pelbagai feedback diberikan, dan tidak kurang juga terdapat segelintir pihak yang cuba menangguk di air yang keruh dengan memutarbelitkan beberapa fakta. Apapun, semoga yang menulis, semoga semua penulis, senantiasa menyedari hakikat bahawa mereka akan dipertanggungjawabkan dengan segala yang ditulis di akhirat kelak. 

Apa yang pasti, tulisan saya kali ini bukan untuk menyentuh tentang Mesir. Sebolehnya, untuk masa sekarang, dengan pengetahuan yang mungkin terhad, selayaknya, saya cuba mengelakkan diri dari berbicara tentang Mesir. Bimbang kalau-kalau informasi yang diperoleh bercanggah dengan fakta di dunia realiti. Yang penting, panjatkan doa, kerana doa itulah sumber kekuatan yang takkan pernah mengecewakan.

Pertemuan Pertama

Pertemuan pertama kami semalam membuatkan saya agak tertarik memandangkan saat bermulanya pertemuan itu, hostel yang kami diami tiba-tiba dilanda blackout. Dan saat itu juga, saya mula terfikir, dengan kegelapan yang mungkin tidak seberapa, saya sudah berasa kurang selesa atau agak resah, apatah lagi jika ditakdirkan saya perlu berhadapan dengan kegelapan yang lebih dari itu. Paling menakutkan, andainya hati ini gelap, bagaimanakah kondisi kita pada masa itu, dan sudikah lagi Dia memandang kita?

Menyusuri bait-bait indah yang Allah titipkan menerusi Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 151 hingga 157 bersama-sama numbers of my sisters, membuatkan saya berasa semakin yakin bahawa perjalanan yang dilalui ini sebenarnya telah ditulis skripnya oleh Dia yang Maha Pencipta.

Bermula dari pengutusan Rasul kepada umat manusia dengan tujuan untuk membacakan ayat-ayatNya, menyucikan hati kita sebagai umat manusia sebelum kita diajar dengan kalimah-kalimahNya, kita juga diingatkan agar senantiasa mengingati Dia agar Dia tetap mengingati kita. Bersyukur dengan segala yang ada, dan jangan pernah ingkar padaNya, kita juga ditunjukkan dengan jalan yang terang lagi nyata demi mendapatkan pertolongan daripadaNya yakni dengan sabar dan solat.

Kita juga diingatkan bahawa mereka yang terkorban dalam perjuangan menegakkan kalimahNya sebenarnya terus hidup di sisi Dia, dan segala jenis ujian yang bakal dilalui oleh mereka yang memilih jalan Allah turut dikhabarkan menerusi ayat cintaNya ini. Dan pastinya penyelesaian akan mampu diperoleh melalui jalan sabar, biarpun saya mengakui, hakikat sabar itu cukup payah. Kerana apa? Kerana sabar itu sebenarnya di saat kita mula menerima sesuatu itu, dan bukannya setelah diconsult atau dipujuk oleh teman-teman kita.

Dan di ayat ke-157, Allah telah memujuk hamba-hambaNya dengan menyatakan mereka yang telah melalui semua fasa yang dinyatakan dalam 6 ayat sebelumnya akan diganjari dengan nikmat ampunan dan rahmat daripadaNya, selain dari petunjuk. Subhanallah! Betapa Dia telah memberikan satu sinopsis yang saya kira agak mudah untuk difahami, malahan dari awal perjalanan sehingga ke penghujung perjuangan telah diringkaskan dalam 7 ayat yang saya kategorikan sebagai very inspiring words. =)

Penutup

Semoga dengan makanan rohani yang disampaikan tanpa jemu akan mampu diterjemahkan dalam amalan dan dihayati dengan sepenuhnya dengan penuh keikhlasan. Bukanlah keikhlasan namanya andai kita acapkali mempersoalkan keikhlasan orang lain, tetapi teruslah menyoal dan muhasabah diri kerana ikhlas itu umpama semut hitam yang berjalan di atas batu yang hitam, di tengah kegelapan malam yang pastinya hitam.

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~