Antara Dua~

"Sesuatu yang tak dijangka

seringkali mendatangi kita

itukah suratan dalam kehidupan

atau sekadar satu kebetulan"

While searching for the right path that will lead us to the right destination,  sometimes, there will come a time when we really need to choose between two paths. And making choice is not that easy. With all the uncertainties that may hurt or maybe can lead us towards happiness that we dreamed of all this while, making the right decision can turn to be the most complicated thing to do in our life.

"Walau kita dihadapkan

dengan berbagai pilihan 

mengapa sering terjadi

pilihan tak menepati 

hingga amat menakutkan

menghadapi masa depan"

But then, as a Muslim, we have the One that will always help us making the right choice through Istikharah. It's only depends on how strong the faith and trust that you have inside, that will help you the most in making the right choice, the best decision. Ya Allah, please gives me the strength, clear minds & strong faith in making the choice.

"kalau hati terasa berat, yakinlah, menunggu itu lebih baik, kerana hati harus rela" 

[ex-housemate, one fine morning, first day of march] 

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

February :)

February is reaching the end... And now, I am still here, waiting & learning something good..

While transferring the data from the information that we have collected few days ago & at the same time watching Semanis Kurma with a topic of "Cinta Baru Kekasih Lama", a quote by one of the panels caught my attention. 

"Apabila pasangan anda mula mencari orang lain untuk berkongsi cerita, periksalah diri sendiri."

It really reminds me of few stories that few people shared with me on how fragile love could be. And this reality, although it seems to be bitter & hard, but yeah, as what the panelist said, "kahwin itu pasangannya cerai, sebagaimana malam pasangannya siang".

Back to my story, waiting is actually not that exciting, although once you get it, you'll appreciate it more. And in the midst of waiting for something good, learning & trying doing many new stuffs is so interesting, like what I am doing now. :D

Seems like my writing skill is getting worst, maybe due to less reading, and hopefully I'll manage to finish read all the reading materials by the time I entering the end of this waiting moment :)

"Why worry when you still can pray?" :)

Happy belated 45th to my beloved mom. 21st February :)

 

 ~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Preview: Hafalan Solat Delisa~

"Delisa cinta umi kerana Allah..."

"Delisa cinta abi kerana Allah..."

"She lost her sisters, and she lost her leg, but she still playing football..."

 Spending my leisure time with my little Athirah watching this movie :) :) :)

"Leaving our past, appreciate the present & pray harder for a better future"

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

The Next Stage :) ~

10th January 2012, unofficially graduated from my university :)

Thanks to Allah, for always gives me the chances to improve myself through the ups & downs all these times. The next stage gonna be more challenging and I hope I can go through it with iman & taqwa. Currently in Kuala Lumpur for some good reasons, & tomorrow I'm gonna fly to Kota Bharu for another series of traveling. 

Ya Allah, please take good care of us :') 

Sweet Langkawi memory of mine [14-15 January 2012]

Dear CJ7-ians & my batchmates, till we meet again, InsyaAllah~ All the best in your future endeavors. :)

To those who always bear patiently with me, may Allah grants you with eternal happiness & from the bottom of my heart, I would like to thanks you for it...  Appreciate it so much...

To the current owner of NBG 2181, WLX 3540, AGJ 5753 & CBK 5958, thank you for everything. May Allah gives you the best rewards, in both dunia wa akhirat~

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Untitled~

Often, we expect too much. But do less. Until one time, we do not realize that we've hurt others indirectly through our non-verbal language. Do not bother about the verbal ones, because it can hurt others more than triple times as non-verbal does. Until the others do not bother anymore and trying to persuade themselves to accept us as as who we are. And reaching this ending line, we just realize & it seems to be too late to realize.

How fragile trust can be, until we can turn all the good memories into an empty can just because of one deed or maybe just one statement. How brittle our love is, when it can turn into hatred just because of one scene that sometimes, we also do not why it happens. Too sad to admit that we have too weak the sense of acceptance, when we finally choose to ignore the people around us, just because we already tired to hold their hand, lending our ears to hear what their problems are...

Trying to put ourselves into others' shoes is not that easy. It's not about the matters that we only need to consider, but the causes, the reasons, the surroundings and the feelings of others in that current situations as well. And finally, we don't have any other options except to be grateful for being who we are...

Towards reaching this ending line, I finally find thousands reasons on how grateful I shall be, instead of finding even one reason to feel regret of what my past had lies. Because life is all about moving on, regardless how much the pain that you feel inside...

We have to let people make mistake, 

and trust that they will realize it, 

and correct it in time by themselves.

[Mike Scholey]

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: The Last of The Final ~

Mixed feeling. This is the right statement to express how do I feel inside. Happy, because everything seems to be done. Only 1 presentation left, 1 final submission and 2 final papers left. No more burning the midnight oil like the previous 5 years. No more meeting deadlines in term of academics and events matter. No more conflict with group members prior to submit any group works. It's no more. I admit, at the moments, all these seems to be so hard to face, but right now, when I'm looking back at all of this, it do makes me smile :)

And after my last test this evening, I admit that I'm gonna miss the the feelings of being a student. Being a student for almost 18 years, I have gone through lots of things. Can't resist that. And of course, university life is the most precious one, because I have learned most of the things here. Trust, loyalty, friendship, hardship, patience, calmness... Everything, I would say.

Gonna miss this place, and will always remember the memories here, and everywhere around this state. Always~

Physically, the toughest memory among all. Reaching the peak of Fraser Hill.

Melancholic ;') 

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Final Year Project :) ~

Alhamdulillah, I am finally done with my viva, or in other universities it might be called as Final Year Project presentation. Having fever while I need to do this kind of important presentation somehow has its own good reasons, and I must thank Allah for granted me with two examiners that I would say so motherly, kind hearted and so helpful in recommending the best way to improve my thesis for final hardbound submission.

My presentation front slide :)

Started my presentation by saying "Before I start, I would like to apologize if my voice projection might not be clear to you since I am actually having fever now" is something that I will always remember till the end of my time. :D And surprisingly, the way they treat me more on like their own daughter is so wonderful to be remembered, especially on the day when everyone seems need to force themselves, facing their greatest fears to show their effort outcomes after being struggle to complete their project for almost 8 months.

And of course, once this viva had done, the moment to walk into another stage of life is nearer, especially for my CJ7 big family. Hoping the best for everyone, may Allah bless every single path that we take and grant us with a good environment to stay living in a good faith, always remember to be a humble and obedient servant of Him.

Maka sebagaimana yang telah disebutkan dalam Surah Al-Insyirah ayat ketujuh yang bermaksud, "Maka apabila engkau telah selesai (dari sesuatu urusan), tetaplah bekerja keras (untuk urusan yang lain)", marilah kita sama-sama memanfaatkan sisa hidup yang berbaki, kerana usia & masa yang tinggal rahsia Allah, seharusnya kita penuhi dengan amalan yang barakah.

Will be leaving this undergraduates life years soon, may the next stage of life makes me the better khalifah of Allah. (^_^)

And special thanks dedicated to my official sponsor, (MARA) for paying the tuition fees for this semester (since it has become a puzzle to many of us) and provided me with cost-living allowance for the whole five years of my university life :)

With both internal & external examiners :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~