My Last Wish~

This is not the song title anyway. The title is actually Guide Me All The Way... :')

  So my last wish is for You to be pleased with me :')

 

 Guide me all the way...

Don't let me go astray...

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Katak oh Katak~

Alhamdulillah, pagi tadi berkesempatan menghadiri usrah di rumah Ummi Sadiah... 

And I would love to share about one sharing from one of my usrahmates with regards to "the frog inside the kettle". And it's actually quite significant for us, as a human who is always forget but yet Allah have always and will continuously gives us the chance to repent from all the mistakes and wrongdoings that we have done as long as we alive and not reach our ending-time yet.

The hot water inside the kettle represents the big sins that people may commit. And the frog signifies us, the always-forget-human-being.

Let us imagine that we are the frogs that jump straight into the kettle containing hot water. How do we feel? We'll straight away realize that the hot water make us feel uncomfortable and we'll jump outside the kettle as fast as we can.

Taken from Google Image

However, let us imagine that we are the frogs that stay inside the kettle since the kettle had not yet been boiled. The kettle is been heated slowly and as time goes by, our body resistance towards the heat is increasing. Until one point, we already feel nothing about the hot water surrounds us and we just choose to stay inside the kettle. And once the temperature reach its maximum, it is already too late for us to get out from it.

Big sins usually starts with small sins that we commit continuously. As time goes by, the small sins had turned to be our daily routine and we feel so comfortable in doing it. And finally, it had turned out to be the big sins. 

People will not easily starts committing crimes. They usually start by making a simple bad habit or bad thing that can be count as small before they have the courage to commit the big ones. And the moral of this "frog inside the kettle" story is, be careful with a small sin that we usually did, and try to replace it with a small good thing or else, we'll be drown inside the hot water that we actually have trained our own heart to be comfortable with.

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Saling Menjaga :)

"Sahabat, untuk selamanya...

Bersama, dan SALING MENJAGA"

"Someone who can stand your worst is the one who deserve your best" :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Forgive Me :'(

 

I’m about to lose the battle and cross the line
I’m about to make another mistake
And even though I try to stay away
Everything around me keeps dragging me in
I can’t help thinking to myself
What if my time would end today, today, today?
Can I guarantee that I will get another chance
Before it’s too late, too late, too late

Forgive me
My heart is so full of regret
Forgive me
Now is the right time for me to repent, repent, repent

Am I out of my mind?
What did I do? Oh, I feel so bad!
And every time I try to start all over again
My shame comes back to haunt me
I’m trying hard to walk away
But temptation is surrounding me, surrounding me
I wish that I could find the strength to change my life
Before it’s too late, too late, too late

I know O Allah You’re the Most-Forgiving
And that You’ve promised to
Always be there when I call upon You
So now I’m standing here
Ashamed of all the mistakes I’ve committed
Please don’t turn me away
And hear my prayer when I ask You to

 ~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: .... ~

Entri kali ini mungkin bunyinya agak peribadi. Mungkin ditafsir sentimental bagi sesetengah orang. Rasanya sudah agak lama aku tidak mencoretkan apa-apa, dan peristiwa hari ini membuatkan aku benar-benar memahami, yang seorang mak itu perlu bijak untuk menyimpan rasa hati sendiri.

Hari ini juga mengajar aku yang seorang bapa itu, biar semasa zaman anak yang sulung itu kecil, dia bersikap agak tegas, namun tatkala anak sulung itu sudah dewasa, seorang bapa itu sering sahaja menanyakan pendapat anaknya yang paling tua. Dan dalam keadaan apapun dia, akan tecari-cari dahulu di mana anak sulungnya berada, biar dia sedar yang sulung itulah paling jauh dari mata.      

Sesetengah insan sekelilingku sering saja melempar kata, "Ija anak yang sulung janganlah terlalu mudah menitiskan air mata, sembunyikan sahaja apa yang dirasa. Bimbang lemahnya kamu, menyebabkan adik-adik berambah kurang kuatnya."

Tapi hati kecilku meronta, kerana aku juga punyai air mata. Ya Allah, aku sayangkan dia keranaMu, maka percepatkanlah proses penyembuhannya.

 ~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Antara Dua~

"Sesuatu yang tak dijangka

seringkali mendatangi kita

itukah suratan dalam kehidupan

atau sekadar satu kebetulan"

While searching for the right path that will lead us to the right destination,  sometimes, there will come a time when we really need to choose between two paths. And making choice is not that easy. With all the uncertainties that may hurt or maybe can lead us towards happiness that we dreamed of all this while, making the right decision can turn to be the most complicated thing to do in our life.

"Walau kita dihadapkan

dengan berbagai pilihan 

mengapa sering terjadi

pilihan tak menepati 

hingga amat menakutkan

menghadapi masa depan"

But then, as a Muslim, we have the One that will always help us making the right choice through Istikharah. It's only depends on how strong the faith and trust that you have inside, that will help you the most in making the right choice, the best decision. Ya Allah, please gives me the strength, clear minds & strong faith in making the choice.

"kalau hati terasa berat, yakinlah, menunggu itu lebih baik, kerana hati harus rela" 

[ex-housemate, one fine morning, first day of march] 

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

February :)

February is reaching the end... And now, I am still here, waiting & learning something good..

While transferring the data from the information that we have collected few days ago & at the same time watching Semanis Kurma with a topic of "Cinta Baru Kekasih Lama", a quote by one of the panels caught my attention. 

"Apabila pasangan anda mula mencari orang lain untuk berkongsi cerita, periksalah diri sendiri."

It really reminds me of few stories that few people shared with me on how fragile love could be. And this reality, although it seems to be bitter & hard, but yeah, as what the panelist said, "kahwin itu pasangannya cerai, sebagaimana malam pasangannya siang".

Back to my story, waiting is actually not that exciting, although once you get it, you'll appreciate it more. And in the midst of waiting for something good, learning & trying doing many new stuffs is so interesting, like what I am doing now. :D

Seems like my writing skill is getting worst, maybe due to less reading, and hopefully I'll manage to finish read all the reading materials by the time I entering the end of this waiting moment :)

"Why worry when you still can pray?" :)

Happy belated 45th to my beloved mom. 21st February :)

 

 ~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~