Sharing: Tranquility~

Ikhlaslah menjadi diri sendiri agar hidup penuh dengan ketenangan dan keamanan.

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Yang Tersimpan~

Alhamdulillah~

Currently, I am trying to teach myself to always remember saying Alhamdulillah in whatever situations I am involve in.

La haw la wala quwwata illa billah~

I am trying to strengthen my heart by saying this kalimah whenever I heard or see the things that I don't like and I need to force myself dealing with it.

Astaghfirullah hal a'zim~

I try to melt my heart by remember Allah through this kalimah so I won't stray too far from the right path.

Firstly, this entry might makes some people feel kind of offended or uneasy. In lieu to this, it is highly advisable to those who are very sensitive, or maybe very judgmental, or love to make assumptions to discontinue reading this entry. This entry basically all about my feelings, regardless I know or do not know what actually had happened. Any feelings after continue reading this entry are basically at your own risks.

1) A secret makes a woman, woman.

In life, there are the things that we only feel safe to share it with few numbers of people that we actually trust a lot. How do you feel when things that quite personal to you been revealed by the person that you trust a lot? Plus, it's not been revealed to a person, but to too many persons. Can you build the trust back once you encounter with this type of problem? Remember, trust takes year to establish and moment to destroy. Think, think and think!

I was once been trapped in this type of problem when I did kind of curhat with a person that I trust a lot. Surprisingly, something related with my curhat have been mailed to everyone and after that, the situation that I described in my curhat have becomes a very popular and famous example in any meeting or any situation that you may called it as meeting or things-that-similar-to-meeting for almost the whole of this semester. Please, try to put yourself in my shoes and think, think and think!

2) Halo error.

Do you know what halo error really means? OK, let me tell you. In Human Resource Management terms, halo error basically referring to one of the most common errors in evaluating a person's performance appraisal. This error is happen when you mark a person as totally good or maybe totally bad just because of one factor. 

For me, a person that always do this kind of error is basically a judgmental person, and errr.. those judgmental people, please discontinue reading this entry. This is the second time I do this reminder and please, never blame me for this entry since I have remind you.OK?

What is the significance of this halo error to my life through out this semester? Ahaaa, lets me keep it as my life secret. Just want to tell you that, a judgmental person shall not regret if people around him or her will also react the same towards them. Hello my dear, what you give, you get back! (One of my dearest have remind me about this meaningful quote.) Thank you dear :)

Another point is, shall we just trust a people at one side and never takes into account how the other side actually feel, think or have gone through? Think, think and think!

3. Interfering ones personal life.

This is basically thing I hate the most. Mind you, it's kind of "pantang-nenek-moyang" for me if there is anybody outside try to interrupt into my personal life. I believe, everybody knows how open I am and I will tell you the real things happened when I am ready to get any feedback regardless how good or bad it will be. Asking a person or trying to get to know things from people that only knows about something related to me from his or her own observation might be a wrong step. How to say ya? 

OK, I don't mind if you still want to believe 100% story from one side. But, why don't you try to ask me first on what did I actually have done rather than you also comes with so many "unnecessary" status or maybe entry or maybe anything in non verbal way which I know you are trying soooo hard to tell anybody around you that I am bad and you are pretty good? Please, think, think and think! Remember, I always say this sentence to anybody around me, "Aku paling tak boleh if ada orang try to advice me about this and that but sooner, he or she will do the same thing. If later sikit, boleh la nak terima...Kannnnnnnnnnn"

The phone call, stalker and sudden gtalk. Haha~ Always be remember till the end of time. Good try anyway. Keeps it up, dude!

 

4) Unnecessary stress.

Hahaha. This phenomenon makes me always feel kind of doubt about what relationship really means. Let me put a very high emphasization on this point. You will never feel stress about others if you do not have any bad perception towards that person. Remember this. Keep it at the best pisition in your mind so you can remember this point forever. Put this inside your heart as well. Please!

Erm, shall I elaborate more about this? Erm.. I think it's better not. But please, put this in our mind and heart ya~ 

5) Unnecessary thoughts.

Thoughts. We can express our thoughts in many way. Isn't it? Anybody disagree? Ahaaaaaaaa.. Sometimes, we can express our thoughts through verbal word, or maybe through non-verbal way. But why I wanna say about this point? Hurm...

Sometimes, I do believe that my own status might makes everyone feel stress (can we say this as unnecessary stress or not?). But, there are many times that we shall keep our inner feeling for our own. I won't elaborate more on this point, but, please, think, think and think!

One thing that I always put in my mind and heart, if you want to tell or confess something to a person, please, do it by verbal way. Non-verbal way may leads to misperception. Misperception may leads to misunderstanding. Misunderstanding may leads to negative feeling. Negative feeling may leads to bad relationship. Can you see this? 

Maybe this time I also have done the same thing since I did this entry which basically kind of confession by non verbal way, so, can you tell me what do you feel now? Is it good? Or, you might love it very very much? Or, you feel kinda @#$@^$*&$?

Conclusion.

This is basically a general entry but I am currently writing it with a bit of my emotional interference. As I have mentioned above, reading this entry is basically at your own risks since this is about "Yang Tersimpan". Shall there any regret or uneasy feeling arise, please forgive me but as I keep on mentioning for many times, continue reading this entry is basically at your own risks.

Good bye 4th year 1st semester. Thanks for all the memories.

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Sharing: Yang Terindah :) ~

Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia

Hingga ku terasa indah~ :)

Dear mama, mummy and mak (since I and my youngest sister keeps on changing the way we call our mom depending on situations :P)...

Selamat Hari Ibu (^_^)

p/s -> 1.25 hours to my second final exam paper.. As mom always said, just do it~!

Another happy news to be shared..

6 May 2011 -> newcomer of our big family, Nur Najwa Khairina Binti Mohamad Azahar~ See you this 12th baby!

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Can I Come Back?

 "Can I come back, after been missing for a long time? After sinking to deep?"

 Ikhlas ialah saudara muslim itu meniatkan setiap kata, tindakan dan jihad yang dilakukan hanya untuk Allah, mencari keredaan dan ganjaranNya tanpa mengharapkan harta atau kemasyhuran atau kedudukan atau pangkat atau kemajuan atau kemunduran. Ini bermakna dia merupakan pejuang fikrah dan akidah bukan memperjuangkan matlamat dan kepentingan peribadi.

Katakanlah: Sesungguhnya sembahyangku dan ibadatku, hidupku dan matiku, hanyalah untuk Allah Tuhan yang memelihara dan mentadbirkan sekalian alam. Tiada sekutu bagiNya, dan dengan yang demikian sahaja aku diperintahkan. (Al-An‘am: 162-163)

Dengan ini saudara muslim akan memahami maksud apa yang sering dilaungkannya:
“Allah matlamat kami” dan “Allah Maha besar dan segala puji bagi Allah”.
Rukun Ikhlas-Hasan AlBana

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Sharing: Break~

After such a hectic and kind of miserable life, finally I have a break. At least, even not for last. May Allah eases and bless all the way.With the name of Allah, the most gracious and merciful, I start my final exam preparation~

Must keep in mind: Because effort never determine the results, just follow the sunnatullah. Never neglect the syariatullah.

Quotes from Dengan NafasMu by Ungu: 

Dan demi nafas yang telah Kau hembuskan dalam kehidupanku

Ku berjanji

Ku akan menjadi yang terbaik~

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Nothing You Confess, Makes Me Love You Less~

As time goes by, I realized that sometimes confession bring a big means not only to me but everyone around me. Somehow, it makes me becomes a better person, maybe in both direct and indirect way. But still, the tradition of speak about something at the back keeps going on until today, which actually can turn to be a silence killer in all kinds of relationship.

I was born in a family where my parents will try to sit together with me and tell me what are the things that I have done correctly and what are the things that I shall not repeat and improve in the future. As I grow older, I realized how important this kind of confession was, and indirectly, it makes my relationship with my parents become closer as time goes by.

I remember when I was keep mumbling with my mom due to the workloads that I need to do once I return from the terminal where I performed my industrial training, my mom just smile patiently and said to me that this is the reality if I turn to be a working mother in the future. She said that by hook or by crook, I must get ready to face this type of situation since it is a nature for those woman that not hire any maid to help them to do all the home works.Even sometimes, those who hiring a maid also still need to do this since this is what do we called as responsibility. Dear mom, nothing you confess, makes me love you less~

Once upon a time during my early days in UTP, I always called my father whenever I face any types of difficult situations. Somehow, my daddy always said to me, why don't you ask your friend because I am also not familiar with Perak. I was kind of offended when my daddy told me that, but now I realized that I cannot rely on him all the times since there will be a time and situation where I must do everything on my own and rely on my friends. Dear dad, nothing you confess, makes me love you less~

I remember when my naqibah told me that most of the times, we need to fix with people needs and not try to beg for people in order to fix in with our own needs. Yes, we may beg for it  but only for sometimes. We live to give most of the times, not to receive all the times. Patience and prayer are the strongest weapon that we shall have in order to ensure we can face all the obstacles come into our life. And now I realized, how true this fact is and of course, I wanna say it again that nothing you confess, makes me love you less~

Most of the times, prior to close my eyes, I always try to recap all the things that I have done through out the day. Sometimes, I can feel that how ungrateful I was, since I was kind of not appreciating people around me. People may come and go slowly and suddenly. There is also a case where these people go without saying goodbye and even no hint at all that we will never meet again. 

It is important for us actually to confess on all the things that might burden our head and heart in order to ensure there will be no hard feeling between each other. It's just the way we confess that need to be adjustable according to the type of the person. Different people might need different approaches and I do believe that as time goes by, we shall understand our friends character very well.

Those who had advised me not to think bad about others, avoid to make any assumptions, learn to forgive and forget, try to understand others, accept people mistakes and learn, never hold any grudge, be co-operative, and many more good advises, I am glad that you have be brave enough to advise and confess to me. Believe me that nothing you confess, makes me love you less....

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Sharing: Transitional State~

After quite some times, I finally manage to update something here. Yes, quite some times. I really meant it! As time goes by so fast, I can feel that everything that I do in this semester were like I am competing in a competition. I really need to be quick, fast, hurry, precise, accurate and everything that might relate to fast and quality, you just name it! Are these are the things that my previous seniors faced while completing their final year requirements? Now I understand, the powerful of statement that seems like I used everyday to persuade myself. "Never mind, this year gonna be the last one.. Just be patient. Bear it!"

Somehow, maybe things happened around me seems like giving me kind of surprise. Or maybe, I am in that transitional state or stage, where my mind still keep saying that I am young, but in reality, my heart do also agree that I am getting older. Older? Yep! That's it.

Before I'm doing my industrial training last June, it is seldom for me to hear about marriage, babies, dowries, and anything that falls under this category. But this semester, almost everyone around me do talk about this. Plus, few of my sisters and friends gonna end their "single status" soon, and some of them are walking towards another world that we-do-call-as m.t.b. M.T.B? Yep, mother-to-be. Of course everyone of us will be having that "Aunty" or "Mak Cik" status soon, but I already told those M.T.B to advice their child to call me as "Sister" or "Kakak" only. Honestly, I am not ready yet to be called with that title. Must be everyone that read this entry might think like, what the????????????? Hehe :P

Somehow, this transitional state seems fun, but of course, I can't avoid myself from having kind of sad feeling deep down inside my heart. I still cannot help myself to avoid the sense and feeling that this sister/ these sisters have been taken or will be taken soon by a person that we called as husband. Yes, I know that the ukhuwah and relationship is still there, but I strongly believe, the situation will never be the same.How could you expect the change of title from "Miss" to "Madam" will never change a particular person since the world they are facing is also different? But of course, the spirit, loves and all the memories that been treasured together will always be remain. Forever~

Another thing that I wanna share is about the academic assessment methods. So far, I can tell you that I have only a very few number of quizzes and tests for this semester. But, it still like not giving me enough time to be free and easy. It seems like all the assessment methods used by lecturers are more on relating the theoretical with practice, besides need us to move here and there a lot! I can say that I am quite happy while performing the tasks, but somehow, it makes me tired and fatigue. All of the assessments somehow need you to rely on the other people as well since only few assessment are being done  on individual basis. The rest? All are in group! I am not saying that I am dealing with wrong persons, but the point that I wanna stress out here is to keep the good relation amongst your teammates and comrades are not an easy tasks. Considering others availability, give and take, trying to accept them as who they are, understanding their nature of working, knows how to handle their weaknesses and utilize their strength are some of the things that I need to learn and sometimes, I can say that it makes myself better in improving my interpersonal skills. But of course, the cloud is not always blue (this is totally a direct translation.Hehe :D). After all, patience is the utmost value that I need to hold in order to make me feel less stress and to ensure the possibility for others to get hurt are also less.

I think, this is enough for this time. It may takes me another few weeks to update since the works that I need to complete are queuing like fishes in the UTP's lake waiting for some breads. May Allah bless and eases all the journey ahead... InshaAllah..

Just want to share one quote that I keep in holding in order to make me feel determine to complete all the things,

"Dan kerana TuhanMu, bersabarlah" [74:7]

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