~Bicara Seorang Hamba, Dalam Merisik Redha Pencipta~

Preview: Hafalan Solat Delisa~

2012-02-02T15:12:00.000+08:00

"Delisa cinta umi kerana Allah..."

"Delisa cinta abi kerana Allah..."

"She lost her sisters, and she lost her leg, but she still playing football..."

Spending my leisure time with my little Athirah watching this movie :) :) :)

"Leaving our past, appreciate the present & pray harder for a better future"

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

The Next Stage :) ~

2012-01-18T17:11:00.000+08:00

10th January 2012, unofficially graduated from my university :)

Thanks to Allah, for always gives me the chances to improve myself through the ups & downs all these times. The next stage gonna be more challenging and I hope I can go through it with iman & taqwa. Currently in Kuala Lumpur for some good reasons, & tomorrow I'm gonna fly to Kota Bharu for another series of traveling.

Ya Allah, please take good care of us :')

Sweet Langkawi memory of mine [14-15 January 2012]

Dear CJ7-ians & my batchmates, till we meet again, InsyaAllah~ All the best in your future endeavors. :)

To those who always bear patiently with me, may Allah grants you with eternal happiness & from the bottom of my heart, I would like to thanks you for it... Appreciate it so much...

To the current owner of NBG 2181, WLX 3540, AGJ 5753 & CBK 5958, thank you for everything. May Allah gives you the best rewards, in both dunia wa akhirat~

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Untitled~

2012-01-03T10:00:00.001+08:00

Often, we expect too much. But do less. Until one time, we do not realize that we've hurt others indirectly through our non-verbal language. Do not bother about the verbal ones, because it can hurt others more than triple times as non-verbal does. Until the others do not bother anymore and trying to persuade themselves to accept us as as who we are. And reaching this ending line, we just realize & it seems to be too late to realize.

How fragile trust can be, until we can turn all the good memories into an empty can just because of one deed or maybe just one statement. How brittle our love is, when it can turn into hatred just because of one scene that sometimes, we also do not why it happens. Too sad to admit that we have too weak the sense of acceptance, when we finally choose to ignore the people around us, just because we already tired to hold their hand, lending our ears to hear what their problems are...

Trying to put ourselves into others' shoes is not that easy. It's not about the matters that we only need to consider, but the causes, the reasons, the surroundings and the feelings of others in that current situations as well. And finally, we don't have any other options except to be grateful for being who we are...

Towards reaching this ending line, I finally find thousands reasons on how grateful I shall be, instead of finding even one reason to feel regret of what my past had lies. Because life is all about moving on, regardless how much the pain that you feel inside...

We have to let people make mistake,

and trust that they will realize it,

and correct it in time by themselves.

[Mike Scholey]

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: The Last of The Final ~

2011-12-30T00:14:00.005+08:00

Mixed feeling. This is the right statement to express how do I feel inside. Happy, because everything seems to be done. Only 1 presentation left, 1 final submission and 2 final papers left. No more burning the midnight oil like the previous 5 years. No more meeting deadlines in term of academics and events matter. No more conflict with group members prior to submit any group works. It's no more. I admit, at the moments, all these seems to be so hard to face, but right now, when I'm looking back at all of this, it do makes me smile :)

And after my last test this evening, I admit that I'm gonna miss the the feelings of being a student. Being a student for almost 18 years, I have gone through lots of things. Can't resist that. And of course, university life is the most precious one, because I have learned most of the things here. Trust, loyalty, friendship, hardship, patience, calmness... Everything, I would say.

Gonna miss this place, and will always remember the memories here, and everywhere around this state. Always~

Physically, the toughest memory among all. Reaching the peak of Fraser Hill.

Melancholic ;')

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Final Year Project :) ~

2011-12-27T20:49:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah, I am finally done with my viva, or in other universities it might be called as Final Year Project presentation. Having fever while I need to do this kind of important presentation somehow has its own good reasons, and I must thank Allah for granted me with two examiners that I would say so motherly, kind hearted and so helpful in recommending the best way to improve my thesis for final hardbound submission.

My presentation front slide :)

Started my presentation by saying "Before I start, I would like to apologize if my voice projection might not be clear to you since I am actually having fever now" is something that I will always remember till the end of my time. :D And surprisingly, the way they treat me more on like their own daughter is so wonderful to be remembered, especially on the day when everyone seems need to force themselves, facing their greatest fears to show their effort outcomes after being struggle to complete their project for almost 8 months.

And of course, once this viva had done, the moment to walk into another stage of life is nearer, especially for my CJ7 big family. Hoping the best for everyone, may Allah bless every single path that we take and grant us with a good environment to stay living in a good faith, always remember to be a humble and obedient servant of Him.

Maka sebagaimana yang telah disebutkan dalam Surah Al-Insyirah ayat ketujuh yang bermaksud, "Maka apabila engkau telah selesai (dari sesuatu urusan), tetaplah bekerja keras (untuk urusan yang lain)", marilah kita sama-sama memanfaatkan sisa hidup yang berbaki, kerana usia & masa yang tinggal rahsia Allah, seharusnya kita penuhi dengan amalan yang barakah.

Will be leaving this undergraduates life years soon, may the next stage of life makes me the better khalifah of Allah. (^_^)

And special thanks dedicated to my official sponsor, (MARA) for paying the tuition fees for this semester (since it has become a puzzle to many of us) and provided me with cost-living allowance for the whole five years of my university life :)

With both internal & external examiners :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: (Bab 3) Fi adab Mua'sharah Wama Yujzi Fi Dawamun Nikah~

2011-12-19T11:00:00.001+08:00

Saya merasa terpanggil untuk berkongsi tentang perkara ketujuh dalam kitab Ihya' Ulumuddin karangan Hujjatul Islam Imam Al-Ghazali bab yang ketiga yakni seperti mana yang tertulis dalam tajuk entri ini. Meskipun seorang muslimah diberi kemudahan untuk tidak melakukan solat sewaktu didatangi haid, namun secara hakikatnya tidak mudah bagi seorang wanita itu untuk meninggalkan solat waima ketika itu dia didatangi haid.

Perkara yang berkaitan dengan haid menurut kitab ini adalah seperti yang berikut:

Seorang muslimah itu sebenarnya perlu untuk mengqadha solat yang ditinggalkannya semasa didatangi haid:

1. Jika perempuan dalam keadaan haid mendapati darah haid itu berhenti (dengan melihatnya) sebelum masuknya waktu Maghrib, kira-kira sempat dia solat asar sebanyak satu rakaat, maka baginya wajib qadha solat zohor dan asar.

2. Jika perempuan mendapati darah haidnya kering sebelum masuknya waktu subuh, kira-kira sempat baginya solat Isya' sebanyak satu rakaat, maka wajib baginya qadha solat maghrib dan Isya'. "Dan hal ini (qadha solat yang ditinggalkan semasa haid) adalah sekurang-kurang perkara yang wajib diketahui oleh setiap wanita Islam" (Imam Al-Ghazali).

Huraian bagi kenyataan di atas adalah seperti berikut:

1. Kenapa perlu diqadha solat Asar dan Zohor?

- Kerana perempuan itu hanya menyedari keringnya haid masih dalam waktu Asar, maka baginya wajib solat asar (selepas mandi hadas).

2. Kenapa pula solat Zohor juga perlu diqadha sama?

- Kerana di dalam hukum menjama' (menghimpun solat bagi orang musafir) solat Asar boleh dijama' dan diqosarkan bersama solat Zohor.

- Kerana kecuaian wanita itu sendiri (dari melihat haidnya kering atau tidak), boleh jadi haidnya sudah kering dalam waktu Zohor lagi, langkah Ihtiyat (menjaga hukum) maka perempuan itu juga perlu mengqhada solat Zohor.

3. Dalam perkara solat subuh pun sama :

-Perempuan itu hanya menyedari darah haidnya kering, sebelum masuk waktu subuh, kira-kira sempat solat Isyak satu rakaat (selepas mandi hadas) maka wajib baginya solat Isya' sebab darahnya kering masih dalam waktu Isya'.

-Solat Isya' juga boleh dijama' (bagi musafir) dengan solat Maghrib, maka baginya juga perlu diqadha solat maghrib.

-Di atas kecuaiannya (tidak betul-betul melihat darahnya kering atau tidak dalam setiap waktu solat) maka boleh jadi darahnya sudah kering dalam waktu maghrib lagi (sebab proses keringnya darah itu berlaku secara perlahan- lahan, mungkin perempuan itu hanya menyedarinya dalam waktu subuh, hakikatnya proses pengeringan itu sudah lama berlaku)

-Maka langkah ihtiyat (menjaga hukum) maka adalah bagi perempuan itu perlu di qadha juga solat maghribnya.

Rujukan : Kitab Ihya' Ulumuddin (Jilid ke 2) cetakan Darul Nahwan Nil / Darul Haram Lil Turath, Kaherah.

Semoga bermanfaat.

Meninggalkan solat semasa didatangi haid itu bukanlah semudah itu :)

Rujukan Laman Sesawang: 1 & 2.

Taken from Google Image

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Stronger! ~

2011-12-17T13:10:00.001+08:00

Since the official announcement regarding poster presentation came out quite late, I thought that the dissertation submission also will be postponed. And doing the dissertation that needs my deep perusal is somehow stressful. The first draft of examination timetable somehow not making me feel so depressed, but more to melancholic feeling. In less than 30 days, and I need to say goodbye to Peninsular, after 5 years of growing-up here. Other things need to be settled, thanks to my friends who willing to help, but it's more on thank you Allah for giving me numbers of married friends, where I can ask for their favors to put all my 5 years stuffs before I can finalize where I will be settle down. It's all depending on the destiny, and what is the results of the upcoming and passed interviews that I have attended. Ya Allah, please ease my way, and my friends too...

In the middle of dissertation distress, looking at old moments somehow makes me smile...

First Year (2008)


Second Year (2009)


Third Year (2010)


Fourth Year (2011)

Although the moments passed, the memories remain. And of course, I cannot deny the feeling that I miss my family too!

Peninsular Journey 2010 :)

What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger, stand a little taller...

Ya Allah, bless our journey, till the end of time...

p/s: Since I cannot exactly remember which photos are belong to whom, I just wanna say credit to Faiz Fudzaili, Nasrullah Jaafar & Asyraf Maskan for these pictures. I know the pics are from them, but I can't remember the exact owner of each original photo published here. Peace! (^_^)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

23rd :) ~

2011-12-10T19:07:00.001+08:00

May our love remain until Jannah, InsyaAllah~

We see the world, because of His loves, through your love :')

~10th December 1988~

~Without the youngest one..~

~The youngest..~

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Short Notes: Like Crumpled Paper~

2011-12-07T07:37:00.002+08:00

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Differences :) ~

2011-12-04T18:47:00.002+08:00

"Give others freedom to be themselves. Appreciate the differences between their ways and yours."

"The better part of one's life consists of his friendships."
- Abraham Lincoln-

"The happiest moments my heart knows are those in which it is pouring forth its affections to a few esteemed characters."
- Thomas Jefferson-

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Ayah :') ~

2011-12-02T23:21:00.001+08:00

Siapa bilang anak-anak gadis yang semakin membesar tidak lagi perlukan kasih seorang ayah?

Siapa kata tatkala seorang anak perempuan itu mula melangkah ke alam dewasa, maka hubungan yang rapat dengan seorang lelaki bergelar bapa bukan lagi satu keperluan?

Siapa kata apabila seorang anak gadis itu kelihatan sudah matang, dia tidak lagi perlukan luahan rasa sayang daripada seorang abi?

Hakikatnya, semakin dewasa dan meningkatnya usia seorang anak perempuan, mereka sebenarnya mendambakan hubungan yang lebih rapat dan mesra dengan seorang lelaki yang bergelar abah. Entri kali ini berkemungkinan agak personal bunyinya, tetapi hakikatnya ini adalah realiti yang mungkin dihadapi oleh kebanyakan mereka yang bergelar seorang anak perempuan...

Hati saya sangat terusik setelah membaca entri ini. Entah kenapa, pada sebelah sudut, saya menganggap entri ini merupakan luahan seorang anak perempuan yang jujur kepada ayahnya. Di suatu sudut, saya merasakan agak kurang wajar sekiranya kita sebagai seorang anak mempunyai pemikiran yang sebegitu terhadap seorang insan yang bergelar ayah. Mungkin, sebagai seorang anak perempuan, yang mana emosinya agak mudah tersentuh dan bersifat sukar melupakan berbanding seorang lelaki, sesekali akan wujud perasaan dan bisikan hati yang sebegitu terhadap seorang ayah. "Saya sayang ayah, tetapi ayah semakin jauh..."

Jika direnung kembali, berapa ramai antara kita yang seumur hidupnya tidak pernah dirotan atau dipukul oleh seorang insan yang bergelar bapa ini. Berapa ramai di antara kita yang mungkin pada zaman sekolahnya, amat jarang ayahnya dapat menghadirkan diri ke majlis anugerah yang diadakan pihak sekolah lantaran kesibukan si ayah dengan tuntutan pekerjaan. Tidak dapat dinafikan, ketika waktu itu akan terdetik bisikan yang mengatakan "Ayah tak sayangkan saya", "Daddy do not love me anymore", "Sampai hati abi pukul saya". Namun tidak dinafikan, seiring dengan peredaran masa, masih ramai di kalangan anak-anak ini diberi ilham dan kesedaran oleh Allah bahawa segala yang dilakukan oleh mereka yang bernama ayah itu adalah demi kebaikan mereka pada masa akan datang.

Sampai suatu saat, seorang anak perempuan bakal bergelar isteri kepada seorang lelaki yang juga menjadi ayah kepada anak yang dikandungnya. Hakikatnya, seorang anak perempuan akan tetap memerlukan kasih mesra dan pemahaman tentang seorang suami daripada seorang ayah. Mungkin tidak perlu untuk seorang anak perempuan itu berkongsi kisah rumah tangganya dengan ayahnya sendiri, tetapi apa yang saya maksudkan di sini ialah bagaimana si ayah memberikan sokongan kepada seorang anak perempuannya yang telah melalui fasa lain dalam hidupnya.

Sesekali, terfikir juga bahawa sebagai seorang anak perempuan, kita adakalanya meminta terlalu banyak daripada seorang lelaki bernama ayah. Dan adakalanya, kita tanpa sedar telah membebankan ayah kita, mungkin dari aspek luaran, dan mungkin juga dari aspek mental. Dan sebagai manusia biasa, ayah kita pastinya mempunyai had dan limit mereka sendiri. Kerana unsur kejadian kita dan ayah kita adalah serupa, punyai kelemahan, terkadang rapuh kekuatan.

Sesekali, mungkin tindakan ayah kita pernah membuat hati kita terhiris dan air mata kita akhirnya menitis.

Adakalanya, kata-kata yang ayah lemparkan membuatkan hati kita terluka, lantas meninggalkan parut yang mungkin agak lama menanti sembuhnya.

Kadang-kadang, pilihan ayah yang terpaksa kita akur dan terima meninggalkan kesan emosi yang agak mendalam, membuatkan sirna kasih kita kepadanya kian kelam...

Tetapi, renunglah kembali, tanpa kasih dan sayang ayah kita, tanpa cinta abi kepada umi, tanpa pengorbanan bapa merempuh onak dunia pekerjaan selama ini, mampukah kita mencapai kejayaan yang kita kecap pada hari ini? Mampukah kita untuk meneruskan kehidupan sebagai seorang anak hingga ke saat ini?

Ayah itu manusia biasa, maafkanlah dia...

Abi itu kejadiannya serupa dengan kita, teruskanlah kita suburi rasa kasih kepadanya...

Bapa itu hamba Allah yang takkan pernah sempurna, terimalah dia seadanya, doakan dia...

Daddy is perfectly imperfect, and this makes him the most adorable man of our mummy's life~

Sayangilah dan kasihilah ayah, bapa, abi dan daddy, bukan kerana pengorbanan, bukan kerana tindakannya, tetapi kerana itu adalah perintah Allah semata-mata.

Dan rendahkanlah dirimu terhadap mereka berdua dengan penuh kesayangan dan ucapkanlah:
"Wahai Tuhanku, kasihilah mereka keduanya, sebagaimana mereka berdua telah mendidik aku waktu kecil".
[Al-Israa':24]

Taken from Google Image

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Colourful November :) ~

2011-11-27T21:36:00.002+08:00


Taken from Google Image.

Happy New Year :) Selamat Tahun Baru Hijrah 1433H. Looking back into our past, sometimes we may proud, regret or maybe feel happy whenever the memories cross into our mind. We may cry, smile, or even become emotional in just a second due to the memories. That's how memories can influence our today, affecting us at this moment. *Do you see the importance of forget & forgive here?* :)

Iridescent maybe the right word to describe how colorful our life are. And these colors indirectly influence the way we act, think and respond to our environment. That is why, a good environment is a must, especially for kids' growth since what so called environment plays a major role in developing people, especially kids. Even the young adults who supposedly can think rightly can be influenced by their environment.

It is not a very happy fact that I need to accept the reality that I have less than two months left to leave Peninsular, specifically Tronoh, Perak. For almost five years, I learned a lot of things here which indirectly makes me for who I am for today. I believe that it's not the problems that getting harder, but I am the one who're getting stronger! *positive* :D

And one thing that surely remain until now, it takes years to build up trust, and it takes only suspicion, not even a single proof, to blow it off. That is why, we need explanation. But sometimes, as a human, we can drown into others' words, which sometimes sound more convincing than the actor or the actress of the scene. And in the end, we're the one who get hurt, for giving our trust to the main player of the scene at the first place. But then, we need to consider that, others' words might be from their own eyes and perceptions, but actually, the reality is totally different. So confusing, right? This is life :) That is why, only The One that will never break our trust, break our heart. He is like what you think about Him...

*the end*

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Tranquility :) ~

2011-11-21T08:13:00.000+08:00

"Jika Allah hendak memberikan kebahagiaan kepada seseorang, Ianya tidak boleh dihalang oleh mana-mana tangan sekalipun..."

Taken from here.

"Sometimes, we only lost something, but we feel like we lost everything..."

"Orang yang pernah hidup dengan bertawakal, mereka akan mengetahui keajaiban bertawakal..."

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

20-11-2011 :)

2011-11-20T01:25:00.003+08:00

Dan anugerah yang paling tak ternilai adalah adanya insan-insan yang memahami, mengerti, menghargai, berkongsi & menerima kita seadanya~ :)

In the remaining few hours, appreciate them while you still can meet & see their faces.

Once apart, we'll never know when we'll be meeting each other again...

Appreciate the differences, because the differences that actually makes us complete & attached to one another :)

p/s: Almost all pictures were taken by the same photographer :D

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Tanpamu Apa Jadinya Aku...~

2011-11-12T20:19:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah :) :) :)

I am so glad since I finally managed to do it although there were some circumstances that I would say out of my control while conducting the ceremony. Being an MC for kindergarten kids' ceremony is not an easy task. It needs lots of patience, and ability to handle such kind of unexpected situation is really needed.

Can you imagine when the kids are about to enter the stage when I am not ready yet to announce, and when the time comes, some of the kids want to have their milk before doing the performance? -_- After all, it is such an awesome moment that I will always remember till the end of my time.

Some of the kids during rehearsal. :)

The special guest of the ceremony also had shared with all the audience about THREE law of attraction that everyone shall realize & try to practice in educating their kids:

1. Be thankful.

2. Dream big.

3. Never give up.

Dear mothers/fathers/future fathers/future mothers, please always remember these three points when your time comes :D

And I was totally touched with the final performance by 6 years old students, special for their teachers. However, I cannot recorded the performance since I were also near to the stage by that time ;'( And the song that they were performing do remind me of my previous teachers, who had been directly & indirectly makes me for who I am today...

Taken from here.

pagiku cerahku
matahari bersinar…
ku gendong tas merahku di pundak…
slamat pagi semua
ku nantikan dirimu
di depan kelasku menantikan kami..
guruku tersayang
guru tercinta
tanpamu apa jadinya aku…
tak bisa baca tulis
mengerti banyak hal..
guruku terima kasihku…
nakalnya diriku kadang buatmu marah…
namun segala maaf kau berikan..

reff::
guruku tersayang …
guru tercinta tanpamu apa jadinya aku…
tak bisa baca tulis mengerti banyak hal…
guruku terima kasihku…

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Ramai Yang Tahu Secara Tepat, Tapi Kurang Faham Secara Jelas~

2011-11-02T15:55:00.001+08:00

Just another video taken from Youtube which I think quite interesting to be understood & to be applied in our daily life.

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Of Clothes & Heart~

2011-10-31T08:50:00.000+08:00

Don't judge a book by its cover may not relevant sometimes, but most of the times, the outer is the reflection of the inner side...

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Muslimah :) ~

2011-10-28T09:31:00.000+08:00

Hearing this song for the first time almost brings me down to tears... Wishing that I am that Muslimah :')

Oh muslimah
Allah cinta kepadamu
Rasulullah kasih kepadamu

Oh muslimah
Berbahagialah kau telah dilahirkannya dengan mulia

Subhanallah
Tuhan telah berkati wanita yang cukup ilmu
Rendah hati

Oh muslimah
busanamu menutup rapi
auratmu kau lindungi dengan indahnya

Oh muslimah
kau rajin memuji
Islam kau jadikan ikutan sejati

Oh muslimah
memandangmu menyejuk hati
menundukkan nafsu hati yang goyah
Keayuan wanita solehah indah peribadi
Tulus hatinya

Oh muslimah
Kecantikan yang sebenar
Pada tutur kata penuh berhikmah

Mempertahan kehormatan dirimu
dengan pakaian mentaati Allah

Oh muslimah
Kau masuk ke syurga
Solat lima waktu dan berpuasa
Menundukkan pandangan matamu
Mentaati suami yang tercinta

Oh muslimah
Kau rajin mengaji
Islam kau jadikan
Ikutan sejati

Check & balance: Have we fulfilled the requirements of being a good muslimah? (^_^)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Discovery: Off to Kuala Kangsar & Taiping :) ~

2011-10-23T15:34:00.001+08:00

"Bringing People Closer to Nature"

Another memory before my undergraduate studies years end... :)

Credit to Liyana. :)

p/s: Special thanks to people who willing to bring us here :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Short Notes: Of Your View & My Action~

2011-10-16T08:28:00.000+08:00

"Things are not always what they seem to be"

I bet everyone have heard the above quote or something that is more or less likely the above quote. But somehow, as a perfectly imperfect human, making a snap judgement towards what we accidentally see or hear is unavoidable since sometimes, that is the way we make a reflection towards the things that happen around us.

Most of the times, we as people can predict the risks that we need to take while we're doing something, either it is a good thing or a bad thing. However, we as the doers need to take into considerations towards what the other people may think about what we did or said. And as a safety precaution, we need to always ensure things that we want to do is in line with syariat or what Allah has always asked us to do or to avoid. We cannot simply blame others for blaming us or making any judgement towards what we're doing because we need to consider what they DO NOT KNOW :)

Taken from Google Image

On the other hand, we also need to always remind ourselves to not always simply judge another person just by seeing or looking on what they are doing. All of us are different, and this uniqueness somehow had influence the actions and the words of every single one of us. Just suspend our judgement and never let any negative thinking flow into our mind because most the times, we do not have any idea on why she or he is doing this and that.

After all, although things are not always what they seem to be, it is actually always depend on us either we want to create the chances for others to make any stories due to our own actions and deeds. That is why, there is a quote in a medical term, to prevent is better than to cure.

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Discovery: 9-10-11 :) ~

2011-10-10T16:31:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, after gone through such a traumatic yet wonderful experience on a beautiful date, 9-10-11, I still manage to breath till this moment! Seriously, I will never forget the yesterday's moment till the end of my time.

Depart from UTP as early at 4.30 am, it takes 9 of us approximately 4.5 hours to reach Fraser Hill. There were two cars, and we stopped at RNR Ulu Bernam for about 45 minutes to perform Fajr prayer and take our breakfast. Once we reached Fraser Hill at about 830 am, we need to report ourselves at Fraser Hill Police Station prior to start our hiking at Pine Tree Hill.

The pictures of us. Before and during the expedition. :)

Overall, our hiking takes about 12 hours. We started at 9 am, and we reached the entrance trail back at 9 pm. This time, this expedition was totally adventurous since we're not only doing hiking, but night jungle trekking as well. Haha :D Trust me, it was so traumatic and I think this will be my last hiking in my life. The night jungle trekking was soooooooo memorable that I think I don't want to experience it again. @_@ Accidentally seeing things that u don't wanna see somehow makes the heart beat faster. -_-

Below are some pictures taken using my phone, but not necessarily taken by me. I also do not know who takes the pics since there were numbers of photographers :D

This sign will demotivated you in the beginning but boost your energy towards ending. :D

The Anthill. So big, Subhanallah!

In the middle of the journey [1]

In the middle of the journey. [2]

Spring water. We stopped here for about 10 minutes.

Rumput gunung, I think. At the peak of Pine Tree Hill.

From the peak of Pine Tree Hill. So amazing!

Batu Sempadan Tiga Negeri at the peak of Pine Tree Hill; Perak, Selangor & Pahang.

Taken on the way back to entrance trail.

At the 1st peak of Pine Tree Hill. Only 7 of us continue the hiking due to some reasons. :)

For those who rarely doing hiking, Pine Tree Hill is not the best hill for you. Seriously, I meant it. Doing hiking here needs you to have a very fit stamina or ~~else you'll end up like me~~. Haha :D Whatever it is, I hope my pain will recover soon, and those who're planning to climb this hill, make sure the first thing you do is reporting yourself at Fraser Hill Police Station. And at this entry also, I would like to express my gratitude to all policemen there for all your kindness and co-operation, and also for saving us last night :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

My Heart Is A Kite~

2011-10-07T00:26:00.000+08:00

In my condition for the time being, this poem somehow suit my heart well. And I do love this poem so much! Because it is so true :)

My heart is a kite
held by a string
in the middle of a storm

O Allah,
I'm not asking You
for a calmer storm
Rather, I am asking You
for a thicker string

O Allah,
I'm not asking You
to end this storm soon
Rather, I am asking You
to make me stronger
so that I may hang on longer
and see the rainbow
after the storm ends

Taken from Google Image

This poem is taken from here.

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Discovery: Trong :) ~

2011-10-03T22:49:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, the 3 days 2 nights discovery taught me a lot, especially on the perspective towards life and how beautiful the differences among the people are :)

Kuala Terong at around 6 pm (Day 1)

Picnic at Pecah Batu Waterfall (Day 2)

Fishing for the first time in my life :D

Sya tried to show her skill in throwing the hook :D

The fish feed called pumpun. I cannot touch this... -_-

01 October 2011 - 03 October 2011 :)

"Hai sekalian manusia, bertakwalah kepada Tuhan-mu yang telah menciptakan kamu dari diri yang satu, dan daripadanya Allah menciptakan istrinya; dan daripada keduanya Allah memperkembang biakkan laki-laki dan perempuan yang banyak. Dan bertakwalah kepada Allah yang dengan (mempergunakan) nama-Nya kamu saling meminta satu sama lain, dan (peliharalah) hubungan silaturahim. Sesungguhnya Allah selalu menjaga dan mengawasi kamu."

[An-Nisa':1]

"Janganlah kamu jadikan (nama) Allah dalam sumpahmu sebagai penghalang untuk berbuat kebajikan, bertakwa dan mengadakan ishlah di antara manusia. Dan Allah Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengetahui."

[Al-Baqarah: 224]

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Learn & Live :) ~

2011-10-01T07:55:00.001+08:00

Most of the times, things that give more impact in our life obtained from nature and environment instead of formal education. In the remaining small hours, I'll try to utilize all the learning tools that I have around me prior to end my undergraduate student life. InsyaAllah, He'll always keep us going! :)

Taken from Google Image

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

First in Last, InsyaAllah :) ~

2011-09-27T08:58:00.001+08:00

Taken from Google Image

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Small Hours~

2011-09-09T22:50:00.006+08:00

Seriously, I am crying, internally and externally. No words can can describe the exact feeling of mine for the time being, but one thing I can surely said, always appreciating people around us, regardless how are their characters, because the differences that exist among us are actually the "glues" that bring us together...

While I am looking to numbers of pictures during the old days here in this uni, a private message I received from one of my beloved sisters makes my tears burst...

"alahai..tak smpt nk jmpe2 dah sebelum kite jd bini org ek..lupe pulak awak balik esok..ishh"

[madam-to-be-soon, 2144, 09-09-11]

Looking into old days with her, seriously I can't imagine how do I am for now if Allah do not introduced me to her during my early days in this uni. Although our life journey is actually has been planned by The Almighty in Lauh Mahfuz, but somehow, the path of life is our choice. There always exist two directions for us to choose, and in every single decision that we made, it must be based on IMAN and TAQWA. And to know her here is one of the most precious gifts from Allah for me in this stage of life... ;')

Dear you, I pray from the deep down inside my heart....may Allah bless you in every single thing you do... May He eases all of your affairs and grant you with eternal happiness...Ana uhibbuki fillah...

Times run so fast.... [2008-2011]

Part of Tiga Kata song (KRU) somehow touched my heart, because the words are so true.. ;'(

Walaupun kita saling
Sayang satu sama lain
Tapi kenapa sukar meluahkan rasa
Berikan mereka tahu
Andainya hari esok
Ditakdirkan berpisah

Dalam kesibukan

Kita seringkali mula hilang kemesraaan dengan mereka di sisi
Tak rasa bersyukur
Tak rasa berbangga mempunyai bahu sedia untuk kita bersandar
Pejamkan matamu
Lihatlah di hatimu semua kasih terhimpun dibiarkan terkurung
Jadi luahkan sekarang luahkan...

The remaining small hours... Place that I always hit during exam weeks~

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Sayonara :) ~

2011-09-07T12:21:00.000+08:00

I can't stop myself from sharing this video.. So true, yet so sweet :)

Taken from Youtube

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Eid 1432H~

2011-09-06T08:18:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah wa syukurlillah...

Today is 8th Syawal 1432H and hopefully all the good practices that we did during Ramadhan still remain. :) And today, I'm already at my university, waiting to sit for my one and only paper for this semester, Jurutera Dalam Masyarakat (EIS). And in less than a week, I will fly again to my hometown, to spend another 15 days with my family before come back to this uni, to continue another remaining one semester before I graduate and face another stage of life, instead of student life :) InsyaAllah. May all the journey ahead full with His blessings~ Amin...

There's a lot of story to be told, until I do not know which one to be told and which one to be write first. Instead of wishing Salam Lebaran to all, I would like to congratulate one of my beloved sisters, Sis Fasihah, who already change her title from being a Miss to Madam, sharp on 10.27 am, 5 Syawal 1432 H. May the Baitul Muslim build will last forever till Jannah and may Allah bless you and your life partner till the end of time. I am so sorry for not coming to your wedding since I am still at my hometown during that day. And for another six walimahs on this upcoming 11th and 17th September, I would like to apology in advance for not being able to come since I will fly to my hometown again on this 10th. I am so sorry... May Allah eases all the preparations and I'll pray that the memorable ceremony will run smoothly as you planned. Amin...

Some moments captured using my phone.

Talking about Eid, there's a lot of things have changed. And due to the changes, somehow I totally realized that I am getting older now. Haha :D Before this, it's kind of hard for me to admit an "Aunty" title given to me but during this Eid, I can't resist it anymore. How could I asked the nieces and nephews to call me "Kakak" anymore when my youngest sister who is still 5 years old also been called as Aunty Athirah? Oh oh oh -_- Even though I cannot deny the "uneasy old feeling" when being called as Aunty Zaza, but what can I do... I must accept the fact that all of us (my cousins on my dad's side) are mostly twenties and even a few already reach forties. The times run so fast and somehow I'm quite amazed that some of us have the Mak, Mummy, Ummi, Abah, Bapak, or Daddy title already. :) The 3 days visit to my dad's village which takes us approximately 5 hours from Kuching do brings lots of good news, especially about the newcomers to the big family. :)

And for this Eid, I have learned to bake some of the layer cakes instead of just pick, buy and serve. :D Baking layer cakes need you to have lots of patience since it do takes time, and I really mean it! And hopefully the spirit of baking will continue until next Eid, InsyaAllah... Although it takes lots of times, but seeing the cakes turn into reality will makes you feel satisfied, although some of the layers are not that even. Those who are kind of particular shall set their mind free from "perfection desired" when they are just about to try for the first time baking the cakes. Hehe~

And lastly, all the best to all my friends for this upcoming final examinations. Some of us are having their first paper as early as today and luckily mine is on this Friday :) After we put all our heart and sweat into it, just leave the results to Allah since He always know what we really need and what is the best for us. Maybe for some, having a good results is the best for them but we cannot deny that sometimes, an average results is the best for some, because Allah always knows why~ :) Maat Taufiq Wan Najah Fil Imtihan, and lets all of us do the best for the remaining small hours of being engineering students, and do pray harder for the best in every single aspect of our life :)

"If Allah helps you, no one can vanquish you. If He forsakes you, who can help you after that? So the believers should put their trust in Allah"

[3:160]

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Day 25: The Last~

2011-08-25T08:04:00.002+08:00

Today, we'll enter the 25th day of Ramadhan 1432H which indirectly means that, we'll have another 4 or 5 days to grab all the golden chances and rewards offered by Him. Today also means I am officially free to let go my Final Year Design Project, the most memorable, chaos, bittersweet, laugh, fun and tears project throughout my life as a university student. Of course I will always remember all those moments in completing this project, although I strongly wish from deep down inside my heart, this will be the last one I deal with what so called as plant design activities. -_-

FYDP Group 11 (24 Jan '11 - 24 August '11)

In approximately less than 15 hours, I will fly to my hometown. This gonna be the first time I'm using Firefly service, and I cannot avoid the feeling of nervous and excited to see and to experience how the service will be. Will it be good as Malaysia Airlines or just so-so like AirAsia? Just wait and see. And somehow, I cannot avoid myself from being melancholic when I realize the fact that, this is my last Ramadhan in this university, the place where I grow up from a teenage world to "an almost adult" world. Being here for almost 5 years taught me a lot, with all the invaluable experiences, meeting and knowing lots of people, lives throughout the ups and downs far away from my parent's eyes, learn to deal and encounter uncountable unexpected situations and most importantly, teach me to react towards all the things that comes along my way, of being a person and a servant of Allah. Oh, forget to say, this entry gonna be long, yes, very long for me who rarely write a long entry! =D

Somehow, this year I am having kind of iridescent fasting moments in this uni. From numbers of exciting activities and moments, until to accept the fact that it's a bid adieu time to numbers of wonderful sisters and friends, who gonna leave this uni very soon and entering the second stage of being a Muslim according to Maratib Amal, Baitul Muslim. May Allah bless us in everything we do, regardless how far we gonna be separated after this, because a good remembrance from a friend to friend is via the most powerful medium, a sincere du'a. As quoted from Sis Hannan last night after our iftar, we may meet each other after this, but trust me, it will never be the same. The way we speak, and things that we gonna share will never be as deep as now. My heart do cries when I heard this statement, but somehow, I cannot deny the fact that as time goes by, people will change and their environment play a main role in contributing towards these changes. And I must bear in mind that, next semester might be tougher, the journey towards being a better Muslim will be harder, since this the nature of life journey as He promised in Chapter 90, verse 4.

Sweet moment will always come for few seconds ;'(

Instead of activities with sisters, there are lots of moments created with all of my course mates. Starting with kind of disorganized Deans Lists award occasion, until an adhoc iftar together organized by Aminuddin Ishak, all of these activities somehow bring us closer, instead of "heavy workloads" that keep on haunting us towards the end of Ramadhan 1432H. Sometimes, I do fear if this Ramadhan will just leave me like that, with zero inner changes. I cannot deny the fact that some time, I do put more attention towards my workloads, instead of trying to grab as much as possible the great chances to collect the rewards offered as a preparation to entering the next stage of world, Barzakh and Mahsyar. The hadith as narrated by Ahmad, Bukhari and Muslim somehow makes me afraid, if I have made my Ultimate Source of Tranquility envy, and finally He just gives what I wish for, since He do not wants to hear me anymore ;'(

"Sesungguhnya Allah itu cemburu dan orang mukmin itu (juga) cemburu. Dan kecemburuan Allah itu adalah apabila seorang mukmin melakukan apa yang Allah haramkan atasnya.”

DL Awards (Environment Group) [The lady in purple will change her title from Miss to Madam soon :)]

Credit to Nasrullah Jaafar

While completing the academic tasks, there are some moments when I cannot hold the negative feelings and expressions, which in Islam, we are prohibited to do so... However, I still believe that the chance still exist for me to correct what is wrong and to improve what is not totally right. Allah is generous, and that is why He always give the chance for us to return to the right track through repent. And hopefully, with the remaining days of Ramadhan leave, I will be able to catch all the offers that I've lost.. ;'(

This Ramadhan also have been a good platform somehow, since I think some of bad things before Ramadhan have changed to better. To you that involved, I am sorry and may Allah grants us with the best in future. Although is Islam the maximum days to keep having a "cold silent" are three days, I really hope that Allah will forgive us for all these matters since it is exactly after two months that I can totally forgive and partially forget all the things that happened. As usual, mistakes are part of being human, and we are both physically perfect humans.

Lastly, I pray that everything will runs well and smooth, together with His blessings in all the things and matters that we do and we plan to do. Life is somehow about learning and creating memories, and as quoted from Sis Fasihah, good days give happiness, bad days give experiences, worse days give lessons and the best days give memories. After all, every single things happened in our life basically have its own reasons and purposes. Alas, most of us will just realized about it when it seems to be kind of late already but do not regret about the past, since past is past, and we still have the power to control what will happen next through our deeds, our actions and our prayers. Wishing things to be better without any efforts are meaningless, but when things do not come up as what we plan after we put all of our hearts and sweats into it, just accept it, because that is the best for us, and always remember that, He always know why.

May Allah grant all of us with the third phase of chance offered in this holy month, and may He eases us in everything that we do. We never know when we'll enter the next stage of life, and may this month contributes a lot in our preparations. As quoted from Sis Syah during our Wida' 8 days ago,

"Muamalat yang paling pasti dalam kehidupan kita di dunia ini adalah MATI"

Salam Ramadhan 1432 H

Selamat Menyambut Aidilfitri

Maaf Zahir & Batin

Iftar CJ7 [15 Ramadhan 1432H]

Credit to Khairudin Saad

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Day 21: Remembrance of Al Quds~

2011-08-21T11:22:00.000+08:00

Terbuka akan helaian nota halaqah bertarikh 15 Julai 2010,

Seorang ustaz berkata, di saat piala dunia, ada yang rajin bangun qiamulail, kiblatnya televisyen dan wiridnya "GOL!". Sedangkan di Palestin, Iraq, Afghanistan dan Pattani, umat Islam berkecamuk mempertahankan aqidah, membeli syurga dengan titisan darah..

Di saat 10 hari terakhir Ramadhan sudah memasuki tirainya, marilah sama-sama kita bermuhasabah,

What will be the outcomes of my Ramadhan of this year?

What will be the output of the "reactions" inside myself in this holy month?

And do not forget,

Di manakah Al Aqsa dan Palestin di hati kita?

Kenapa harus tahu dan kisah tentang Palestin, tentang Al Aqsa?

Memetik kata penakluk Baitulmaqdis, Salahuddin Al-Ayyubi,

"Siapa yang menakluki Palestin, maka mereka akan menguasai dunia."

Dan jika dilihat dunia hari ini, siapakah yang menjadi pendominasi utama? (Marilah sama-sama berfikir dan melihat dunia)

Ayuh pemuda dan pemudi, mari berusaha untuk menjadi seperti Salahuddin Al-Ayyubi.

p/s: Bulan Ramadhan mungkin boleh menjadi platform terbaik untuk memboikot produk-produk yang menjadi penyumbang utama kepada peluru-peluru yang menembusi jasad saudara kita di Palestin, terutama buat mereka yang masih belum punyai kekuatan untuk memboikot ;'( Ini baru sekadar memboikot, belum lagi perlu turun ke medan juang dan menjual titisan darah demi membeli syurga....

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Day 17: Bid Adieu~

2011-08-17T07:18:00.000+08:00

Pada wajah itu

Ku lihat ada sinar

Yang ku yakin akan terus sirna

Bersama derapan langkah yang kan terus mara

Dalam keazaman yang tetap membara

Kerana aku dan dia

Dia dan kamu

Dan kita semua

Punyai satu hati, jiwa dan rasa

Meskipun jasad tak lagi bersama

Meskipun mungkin takkan lagi bersua

Tapi kita ada Dia

Yang akan terus mengikat rasa cinta

Dalam nyanyian Rabithah dan ucapan doa...

Di kala kau merasa lemah

Dan aku mungkin tersalah langkah

Carilah warkah dan utusan kasih yang barokah

Imbaslah kembali memori indah berhalaqah

Kerna sesungguhnya kita dijanjikan untuk hidup dalam payah...

Andai aku pergi dulu sebelummu

Ku mohon kau kirimkan aku nota tulus dan restu

Kerana hati kita sebenarnya akan terus menyatu

Tanpa dibatasi ruang dan waktu...

Mengenali dirimu bukan satu kebetulan

Tapi suratan daripada Ar-Rahman...

Memberi bukan untuk disayangi

Menyintai bukan untuk dikasihi

Moga bersua kembali di negeri abadi

Dan kita akan terus bersama dalam dakapan Illahi...

Wida' SISMA 1432 H

17 Ramadhan 1432 H

-kau ada aku, aku ada kamu, dan kita ada Dia-

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Day 14: Persevere~

2011-08-14T02:05:00.003+08:00

Daripada Aisyah, Nabi SAW bersabda yang bermaksud: “Wahai manusia, lakukanlah amalan mengikut keupayaan kamu. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak jemu sehingga kamu jemu. Amalan paling Allah sukai ialah amalan yang berterusan walaupun sedikit.”

(Riwayat al-Bukhari dan Muslim)

Maka tetaplah kamu pada jalan yang benar, sebagaimana diperintahkan kepadamu dan (juga) orang yang telah tobat beserta kamu dan janganlah kamu melampaui batas. Sesungguhnya Dia Maha Melihat apa yang kamu kerjakan.

(Surah Hud: 112)

Have you ever heard an English quote saying "slowly but surely" ? Somehow we can relate this quote with a hadith and a Quranic verse as mentioned above. In Islam, we can say persevere as ISTIQAMAH. Why we need to be persevere in all good deeds that we do?

Before I proceed, I think it's better if we can ask ourselves this question. Is it hard to be persevere? Do we need to be highly determined and discipline in order to be istiqamah in any good deeds and practices that we do? If the answer is yes for both of the questions, you're actually can find the answers on why Allah do loves His servants who're persevere in doing good things in their life.

"Syurga itu manis kerana mujahadah itu pahit"

Of course we need to mujahadah a lot in order to be an istiqamah person. Inner and outer obstacles are not easy things to be faced and to be gone through, especially in today's high technology world. Sins that might become the silent killer of our istiqamah are very hard to be seen and to be detected, unless we have purely white and clean heart. Why I said so? Because only those with pure heart can be very sensitive with every single action they did that might stray away from the right path.

p/s: Currently in unstable mood. The reactor design somehow send me spinning. Boom, boom, boom~

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Day 8: Mummy & Daddy~

2011-08-08T07:46:00.000+08:00

"Dan rendahkanlah dirimu terhadap mereka berdua dengan penuh kesayangan dan ucapkanlah: "Wahai Tuhanku, kasihilah mereka keduanya, sebagaimana mereka berdua telah mendidik aku waktu kecil"."

[Al-Isra': 24]

The words rendahkanlah dirimu terhadap mereka berdua dengan penuh kasih sayang dalam petikan ayat diatas show to us on how Allah do urge His servants to respect and and to honor their parents. To those who are still single, they should love their parents after Allah and Rasulullah, and for the ladies that already fulfilled half of their deen, they should love their parents after Allah, Rasulullah and a man called a husband.

I still remember when I read about one welfare association that requested for people contributions in order to support their homes for those old folks, one thing that automatically comes across my mind was how could their children sent them to this homes and then just leave them without any single word. Actually, I'm not saying all those people that sending their parents to the old folks homes are bad, since there are the cases where the parents are actually want their children to send them there because of loneliness, and their children do regularly visit them.

There must be a reason why their children sent them to the homes. Somehow, I do agree with this statement after reading numbers of current news regarding the cruelty towards own children nowadays. However, back to the basic, the persons called parents are also human. As I always mentioned before, doing mistakes are part of being human. And as a child, we need to set up our mind that we're being raised up by humans, not angels. And of course, they cannot avoid themselves from doing something that we may think as wrong, but in Islam, there's a way we can try to advice and talk to them so they can realize about their mistakes.

I still remember when I was travelling with a friend of mine to Kuala Lumpur for an Oil & Gas occasion few months ago, and I was quite impressed with the way he/she talked to his/her mom. It also makes me realized that to start or to create a sweet moment or conversation, somehow we as the children need to start it first. Maybe some people might say it's easy to say rather to be done, but in order to get something, we need to start something. Sometimes, words can make a huge changes. And I cannot avoid myself to admit that his/her way somehow really makes me think that part of Boyzone's song entitle "Words" do works well.

"It's only words, and words are all I have, to take your heart away."

I still remember during my adolescent times, somehow I do find it's hard to talk to my dad. Even until today, I cannot avoid the fact that I still cannot share everything with him as I did share everything with my mom. Plus, my dad is kind of person that cannot hear his daughter's cry, or else his voice will change into kind of nervous tone. During my second year, it was after I finished my Probability & Statistics paper where I immediately cried once I get out from the exam hall since I cannot answer almost all the questions. What I did was I tried to call my mom who was performing her Hajj that time, but I cannot reach her. Then, I tried to call my dad, and when he heard my crying voice, he suddenly sound nervous. Few seconds later, I received a call from my mom, and I was kind of surprised when my mom said, "I really thought it's about serious matter. You know what, your daddy came to me with vim and vigour since he really thought that something worst had happened."

And her statement somehow strike my heart, since I was totally touched that time. And from that moment, I do realize that a father's heart is very soft, and he do loves us in their own way. It's just a natural nature of a man, who prefer to hide their true feeling as compared to a woman who prefer to show their feeling most of the times. Understanding the basic nature of a man and a woman somehow very important for us, who gonna enter the world called adults soon, since we cannot deny the fact that as our parents grow older, they will become more sensitive, more or less likely the toddler does.

Hope this Ramadhan will change us to be a better child, since there is a hadith in Riwayat Baihaqi saying that,

"Sesiapa yang memancing kemarahan ibu bapanya bererti dia memancing kemurkaan Allah dan sesiapa yang menyukakan hati ibu bapanya bererti dia membuat Allah redha kepadanya."

Somehow, this hadith indirectly told us that our ibadah can be nothing if we're disobedient towards our parents in all kind of things except for tauhid & akidah matter. Lets this Ramadhan be a starting platform for us to be more faithful towards our parents, since without them, we're not who we are today. They might did something that is totally wrong, but we need to bear in our mind that, our parents are human, and we're being raised up by those who have the same nature with us.

Love Allah, love Rasulullah and love our parents. Brings our heart home :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Day 4: Sorry (^_^)~

2011-08-04T09:31:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, sudah masuk hari keempat kita berada dalam bulan yang penuh barakah ini. Semoga semua ibadah dilakukan dengan penuh keikhlasan, beserta dengan hati yang benar-benar merasai kehadiran Allah setiap masa. Sebagai manusia yang fitrahnya pelupa, adakalanya kita tersasar, dan lantas apa yang dikerjakan adakalanya melampaui batas, atau mungkin juga dilakukan bukan kerana-Nya. Semoga bulan yang mulia ini, memberikan ruang yang cukup untuk kita bermuhasabah kembali, di mana sebenarnya Dia di hati.

Tidak dinafikan, dalam mengharungi kehidupan seharian, kita kerap kali diuji dengan ujian yang terkadang menyesakkan dada, menyempitkan jiwa. Sesekali, air mata akhirnya menitik juga, refleksi kepada lukanya hati dek tindakan insan-insan di sekeliling kita. Lantas, kita cenderung untuk memendam rasa, dan mungkin juga kesan hati yang luka membuahkan rasa dendam tanpa sengaja, tanpa dipinta. Pada saat inilah, kita seharusnya membuat introspeksi diri, tentang sejauh mana kita sebenarnya merelakan diri untuk diuji. Ya, kita ini manusia biasa, sesekali jiwa terhiris, sepatutnya dianggap sebagai lumrah yang biasa. Bukankah Allah telah berfirman dalam Surah Al-Balad ayat 4 yang bermaksud,

"Sesungguhnya Kami telah menciptakan manusia itu dalam kehidupan bersusah payah."

Di sini sudah jelas, Allah menciptakan kita untuk hidup dalam keadaan bersusah payah. Daripada keperitan hidup ini jugalah, kita sebenarnya sedang diberi peringatan, agar tersedar dari lamunan kealpaan. Dan seandainya kita sedar akan hakikat ini, pastinya kita dapat mengakui kelemahan kita sebagai seorang hamba, yang sesekali akan terluka, dan tidak dapat pula kita nafikan, kita juga pernah menjadi yang melukakan, baik secara sedar, mahupun tanpa sedar.

Mari sama-sama kita hayati kisah kemaafan Rasulullah saw yang tiada tandingan.

Seorang lelaki musyrik bernama Tsumamah bin Itsal dari Kabilah Al Yamamah telah pergi ke Madinah dengan tujuan untuk membunuh Rasulullah. Dengan persiapan yang serba lengkap, dia pergi mencari majlis di mana adanya Rasulullah dan setibanya dia di tempat tersebut, Umar bin Al Khattab yang melihat penampilan buruknya datang menghalang.

Umar pun bertanya, "Apakah maksudmu datang ke sini? Bukankah engkau seorang musyrik?"

Dengan terang Tsumamah menjawab, "Aku datang untuk membunuh Muhammad!"

Mendengar ucapan Tsumamah, Umar pun merampas senjatanya dan mengikat Tsumamah pada salah satu tiang masjid dan segera melaporkan hal ini kepada Rasulullah.

Rasulullah segera keluar dan menemui Tsumamah. Setibanya baginda di hadapan Tsumamah, ditatapnya wajah Tsumamah dan baginda berkata kepada para sahabatnya, "Sudahkah kalian memberinya makanan?"

Para sahabat yang berada di tempat kejadian sangat terkejut dengan pertanyaan Rasulullah, dan Umar yang menunggu perintah untuk membunuh Tsumamah sejak tadi seakan-akan tidak percaya dengan apa yang didengarinya. Maka Umar pun bertanya, "Makanan apakah yang anda maksudkan wahai Rasulullah? Orang ini datang untuk membunuh, bukannya untuk masuk Islam!"

Rasulullah tanpa menghiraukan Umar terus berkata, "Tolong ambilkan segelas susu dari rumahku, dan bukalah ikatan orang ini."

Meskipun berasa hairan, Umar hanya mematuhi arahan Rasulullah. Usai memberi minuman, Rasulullah berkata dengan sopan kepada Tsumamah, "Ucapkanlah La ila ha illallah." Tsumamah terus menjawab, "Aku tidak mahu mengucapkannya."

Rasulullah tidak berputus asa. Baginda memujuk Tsumamah lagi, "Katakanlah tiada ilah selain Allah, dan Muhammad itu Rasul Allah." Namun Tsumamah masih menjawab dengan nada yang keras, "Aku tidak akan mengucapkannya."

Para sahabat Rasul yang turut menyaksikan kejadian tersebut berasa sangat geram terhadap orang yang tidak tahu diuntung seperti Tsumamah. Rasulullah malah mengambil keputusan untuk membebaskan Tsumamah dan membenarkan dia pergi.

Belum jauh Tsumamah pergi dari masjid, dia kembali dengan wajah yang lebih mesra kepada Rasulullah dan terus berkata, "Ya Rasulullah, aku bersaksi tiada ilah selain Allah dan Muhammad Rasul Allah."

Rasulullah tersenyum dan terus bertanya, "Mengapa engkau tidak mengucapkannya ketika aku memerintahkan untukmu?"

Tsumamah menjawab, "Aku tidak mahu mengucapkannya ketika engkau masih belum membebaskan aku kerana khuatir ada yang menganggap aku masuk Islam kerana takut kepadamu, tetapi aku masuk Islam setelah engkau membebaskan aku semata-mata untuk mengharapkan redha Allah Rabbul Alamin."

Subhanallah. Hebatnya kuasa kemaafan terhadap seseorang sehingga mampu melembutkan hati yang keras! Memang tidak dinafikan, Rasulullah itu insan pilihan yang maksum dari segala dosa, tetapi bukankah tidak salah untuk kita berusaha memperbaik diri dengan mencontohi akhlak baginda?

Hati yang terluka memang mengambil masa untuk kembali pulih seperti sediakala. Dan menghulurkan kemaafan setulus hati bukannya perkara yang mudah untuk dilaksanakan. Saya sendiri mengakui kenyataan ini. Tetapi, apabila terfikir akan ketidaksempurnaan diri yang pastinya turut melukakan insan sekeliling, saya adakalanya terfikir juga, lantaskah sukar bagi kita untuk menghulurkan sebuah kemaafan, pada saat kita juga membutuhkan kemaafan daripada orang lain? Ya Allah, lembutkanlah hati ini dan hiasilah diri ini dengan peribadi yang mulia serta akhlak yang benar...

"Perkataan yang baik dan pemberian maaf lebih baik daripada sedekah yang diiringi tindakan yang menyakiti. Allah MahaKaya, Maha Penyantun"

[Al-Baqarah: 263]

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Akan Ku Ketuk Pintu TuhanKu...~

2011-08-02T21:58:00.001+08:00

By Dr. MAZA...

Taken from Youtube.

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Day 2: Infaq~

2011-08-02T07:50:00.000+08:00

"Kamu sekali-kali tidak sampai kepada kebajikan (yang sempurna), sebelum kamu menafkahkan sebahagian harta yang kamu cintai. Dan apa saja yang kamu nafkahkan, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahuinya."

[Ali 'Imran: 92]

To whom we shall infaq our wealth?

"Mereka bertanya kepadamu tentang apa yang mereka nafkahkan. Jawablah: "Apa saja harta yang kamu nafkahkan hendaklah diberikan kepada ibu-bapak, kaum kerabat, anak-anak yatim, orang-orang miskin dan orang-orang yang sedang dalam perjalanan." Dan apa saja kebajikan yang kamu buat, maka sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahuinya."

[Al Baqarah: 215]

Bukanlah menghadapkan wajahmu ke arah timur dan barat itu suatu kebajikan, akan tetapi sesungguhnya kebajikan itu ialah beriman kepada Allah, hari kemudian, malaikat-malaikat, kitab-kitab, nabi-nabi dan memberikan harta yang dicintainya kepada kerabatnya, anak-anak yatim, orang-orang miskin, musafir (yang memerlukan pertolongan) dan orang-orang yang meminta-minta; dan (memerdekakan) hamba sahaya, mendirikan salat, dan menunaikan zakat; dan orang-orang yang menepati janjinya apabila ia berjanji, dan orang-orang yang sabar dalam kesempitan, penderitaan dan dalam peperangan. Mereka itulah orang-orang yang benar (imannya); dan mereka itulah orang-orang yang bertakwa.

[Al Baqarah: 177]

Infaq is a long term investment, a good loan to Allah s.w.t :)

"Jika kamu meminjamkan kepada Allah pinjaman yang baik, niscaya Allah melipat gandakan (pembalasannya) kepadamu dan mengampuni kamu. Dan Allah Maha Pembalas Jasa lagi Maha Penyantun."

[At Taghaabun: 17]

"Dan sesungguhnya Allah telah mengambil perjanjian (dari) Bani Israel dan telah Kami angkat di antara mereka dua belas orang pemimpin dan Allah berfirman: "Sesungguhnya Aku beserta kamu, sesungguhnya jika kamu mendirikan salat dan menunaikan zakat serta beriman kepada rasul-rasul-Ku dan kamu bantu mereka dan kamu pinjamkan kepada Allah pinjaman yang baik sesungguhnya Aku akan menghapus dosa-dosamu. Dan sesungguhnya kamu akan Kumasukkan ke dalam surga yang mengalir di dalamnya sungai-sungai. Maka barang siapa yang kafir di antaramu sesudah itu, sesungguhnya ia telah tersesat dari jalan yang lurus"."

[Al Maidah: 12]

Allah promised that every sincere infaq will be repay :)

Katakanlah: "Sesungguhnya Tuhanku melapangkan rezeki bagi siapa yang dikehendaki-Nya di antara hamba-hamba-Nya dan menyempitkan bagi (siapa yang dikehendaki-Nya)". Dan barang apa saja yang kamu nafkahkan, maka Allah akan menggantinya dan Dia lah Pemberi rezeki yang sebaik-baiknya.

[Saba': 39]

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Day 1: Thoughts~

2011-08-01T12:13:00.000+08:00

"Hai orang-orang yang beriman, jauhilah kebanyakan dari prasangka, sesungguhnya sebagian prasangka itu adalah dosa dan janganlah kamu mencari-cari kesalahan orang lain dan janganlah sebahagian kamu menggunjing sebahagian yang lain. Sukakah salah seorang di antara kamu memakan daging saudaranya yang sudah mati? Maka tentulah kamu merasa jijik kepadanya. Dan bertakwalah kepada Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Penerima tobat lagi Maha Penyayang."

[Al-Hujurat: 12]

"Barangsiapa menempatkan dirinya di tempat yang menimbulkan prasangka maka janganlah menyesal kalau orang menyangka buruk padanya."

[Saidina Umar Al-Khattab]

Taken from Google Image

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Tuhan [Wali Band] ~

2011-07-31T08:31:00.002+08:00

While trying to make some progress on my Final Year Project, this song somehow attract my attention.

Tuhan dengarkan aku

Ku memohon kepadaMu

Kuangkat tanganku

Kulafaskan lidahku

Menyebut namaMu Tuhan

Tuhan lihatlah aku

Kuberserah kepadaMu

Kuletakkan keningku bersujud padaMu

Ampuni dosa-dosaku

Tuhanku jangan ambil nyawaku

Sebelum ku dekat denganMu

Tuhanku siapkan duniaku

Tuk nanti tiba akhiratku

Berapa nikmat yang t’lah Kau beri

Berapa yang t’lah aku ingkari

Masih pantaskah sujudku padaMu

Aku malu aku malu….

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Let It Go...~

2011-07-30T15:46:00.002+08:00

This entry gonna be a long entry, since it has been quite sometimes I haven't enhance my writing skills. =P

Alhamdulillah, the most awaited Thursday has passed and I'm sure that 28th July 2011 will always remain in everyone hearts, especially Chemical Engineering students, batch January 2007. Finally, after a long sweet-bitter-sour of hardships (approximately 7 months), the Final Year Design Project has comes nearly to its end. Hopefully the final stage of this project will runs well and turns to be less complicated.

There's a lot actually that I've learned throughout this project. Since it is a group work, I can say that it's kind of life learning process as well since this project somehow taught me that everyone in this world are live to complete each other. Yes, complete each other since everybody have their own strengths, preferences as well as weaknesses. Like us, the tasks are divided according to the personal's strength and towards the end, somehow I've found out that how amazing our life could be if we can tolerate with each other and learn to give and take. Just a simple example; I hate drawing and love reading. So, I do in charge a lot in theoretical parts while another members that hate reading but love drawing will in charge on practical parts such as iCON, P &ID and PFD. The others will do another critical parts as well according to their preferences ~~even though there is no favorite part in this FYDP actually~~. :P

Part of our Ammonia Plant that needs to be treat :P

And somehow, this semester's presentations did open my eyes since I can feel how Allah do love us as His servants. I have no word to say but one thing I can surely write here is, whatever it is, pray for good things all the times and Allah surely will answer your requests. And mind you, you will face lots of difficulties in achieving what you desired, but in the end, you will find the tranquility that you're searching for and you'll feel how amazing Allah had planned our life!

After the presentation, I went to Manjung for some reason with my friends. It is good since we managed to return back by Isyak time, and to you, thanks a lot for the treat. Hopefully, there is still another treat in the future :P And to my "superhoney", thanks for being such a great partner. Hehe~

In less than 48 hours, Sya'ban will leave us and Ramadhan will come. I can say that I have another indescribable feeling towards this Ramadhan since I think I've been quite stray away from the right path in this semester. Whatever it is, I still hope there's still another hope for me to change what is incorrect and to improve what is not totally right. This semester have been quite challenging to me since there are lots of unexpected things happened and somehow I must admit that I've changed. And of course, I cannot deny the fact that whatever things happened will always remain in my mind, and to let things go easily is not as easy as one, two, three.

Having various characters of people in our surrounding somehow teach us something, it's just either we can realize about it or not. Many people tend to say something, write something or post something in their social network but somehow when it comes to the moment where they need to prove or apply what they said, I can say that these persons are totally failed! However, I still need to persuade myself that whatever good advices given to us, we need to appreciate it a lot, even though practically, those advisers did worst than us. We're human, and mistakes are part of being human. We really need to hold this statement strongly in order to avoid any hard feelings towards others or otherwise, we'll never live in peace. Remember all the sadness and frustration, and let it go~

I am actually already in "balik kampung" mode since I've settled 2 over 4 my flight matters. This August and September gonna be my travel moments since I will fly to the sky for four times in these two months. Hopefully everything will run smoothly and the ticket price will never increase crazily. I really hope that the Exam Unit will release the examinations timetable soon since the ticket price is keep on fluctuating; especially during festivities.

As for my projects, the final part will end soon and I really hope that the burden will be less. I cannot avoid the bored feeling in facing all these projects, but somehow I do believe that I'm gonna miss all the hardships that I've gone through in completing and fulfilling the requirement in getting the Bachelor (Hons) in Chemical Engineering. As mentioned in Chapter Al-Insyirah, verse 5 and 6, verily that after difficulties, there's release.

I do not know what else to be write on here, just hoping that this Ramadhan gonna full with all good deeds, blessings, loves, forgives and barakah. I am sorry for all mistakes that I've done, either by all means or not, and hopefully this bless Ramadhan will change us to be a better person.

"Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan kali ini penuh makna...

Agar dapat ku lalui dengan sempurna..."

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Short Notes: Die Hard~

2011-07-27T01:18:00.001+08:00

In the middle of kinda hustle-bustle to finish compiling my FYDP slides, somehow one quote from this entry makes my heart beats slower. Hahaha. I prefer to use slower instead of faster since faster is widely used by people and I do love to be different from others. :P

Bad habits die hard.

The quote seems easy to be read out loud but somehow it carries deeper meaning. So, in order to be better in the future, we need to make the first step towards the changes from now. It is impossible that we can change our bad habits in a short while since the habits might be our heaven and earth for a long time already.

Ramadhan will be coming soon, in less than a week. May this blessing month will help us a lot in improving ourselves for the sake of better life in dunia wa akhirah :)

FYDP is calling again. Salam :)

Taken from Google Image

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Friends :) ~

2011-07-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

Friends are not judgmental, loyal and keep secrets well, while enemies despise & couldn't stand one another.

Which one is you?

Taken from Google Image

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Short Notes: Define You ~

2011-07-21T08:40:00.000+08:00

Part of the lyrics in These Small Hours song somehow so meaningful that I would love to share with everyone.

Let it go,
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in,
Let your clarity define you...
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels...

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Selamat Ulang Tahun 22, Sayang :) ~

2011-07-21T00:32:00.009+08:00

For all the laughs and tears that we shared together...

For all the ups and downs that we faced together...

For all the sweet and hard times together...

For everything that you and me experienced together...

May Allah bless us till the end of time...

With full of blessings, mawaddah, sakinah wa rahmah :)

Dear my dear,

I cannot avoid the feeling to say this...

Somehow we did planned to share "something/ someone" together, but in the end if that turns out to be a reality in the future, I really pray that it's just a starting point that we gonna holding each other hands till the end of time forever...

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Mumbling~

2011-07-19T20:55:00.001+08:00

Situation A.

Lady: Why don't you squeeze the toothpaste from the bottom so it looks much nicer? (while her hand points at the toothpaste)

Man: As long as I brush my teeth then it's OK laaaa...

Situation B.

Lady: These clothes I need to wash it by hand. That clothes I will just put in the washing machine. Do not mix them up. Put in different pails please.

Man: Too many orders. As long as I put it inside a pail then it's fine I guess.

I believe, everyone will agree that ladies love to speak more as compared to the men. Sometimes, their mumbling makes a man feel like their life was in miserable and kind of terrible. But, lets me share with you about one story related to mumbling. :)

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Pada zaman pemerintahan Saidina Umar Al-Khattab r.a., terdapat sepasang suami isteri yang selalu bertengkar dan bergaduh. Si isteri tidak henti-henti membebel. Sedang memasak pun dia membebel, sedang membasuh pun dia membebel, sedang tidur pun kalau boleh dia nak juga membebel.

Si suami tidak tahan dengan perangai isterinya yang sangat suka membebel. Dia pun marah balik isterinya kerana membebel. Si isteri pula menjawab. Si suami mula meninggikan suara.

Dari situlah mereka bertengkar dan bergaduh saban hari. Lama kelamaan si suami merasakan yang isterinya sudah melampau. Memandangkan keadaan rumahtangga mereka semakin parah, si suami pun mengambil inisiatif untuk pergi berjumpa dengan Saidina Umar untuk mengadu kelakuan isterinya.

Sebaik sahaja tiba di rumah Saidina Umar, si suami terdengar isteri Saidina Umar sedang membebel di dalam rumah. Tetapi tidak terdengar pula suara Saidina Umar membalas. Mendapati isteri Saidina Umar pun begitu, si suami tidak jadi hendak mengadukan hal isterinya. Katanya dalam hati, kalau isteri Khalifah pun begitu, apatah lagi isteriku.

Ketika dia berpaling hendak pergi, tiba-tiba Saidina Umar memanggilnya dan bertanya, "Apa hajat kamu datang ke mari?"

Si suami tadi menjawab,

"Aku datang hendak mengadu hal isteri aku, tapi aku lihat isterimu pun berkelakuan demikian terhadapmu."

Saidina Umar tersenyum lalu berkata, "Tidak patut kalau aku tidak sabar dengan kerenahnya. Bukankah dia telah memasak makanan untukku, membasuh pakaianku, bersabung nyawa melahirkan zuriat untukku, menjaga anak-anakku dan dia tempat aku mendapat hajatku? Sabarlah, sesungguhnya keadaannya itu tidak lama (nanti akan baik sendiri)."

Taken from here.

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This story maybe referring to those who already get married. But somehow, it is important to know that ladies do love talking.. And of course, the men need to hear. Bear in mind, this is nature. So whenever a lady want to talk, just hear, even though deep down inside, you as a man feel like to shout at her and say, "Can you please be silent?"

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Mistakes~

2011-07-19T09:40:00.000+08:00

Currently in the journey of learning to accept others mistakes...

Because it is a part of being human :)

And we also do that to others~

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Bagus :) ~

2011-07-17T11:01:00.000+08:00

This video somehow boost my spirits in the middle of ~~FYDP distress.~~

Every single thing happens, BAGUS! :)

Just believe & have faith in everything~ (^_^)

Taken from Youtube

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Menyingkap Peribadi~

2011-07-16T20:03:00.000+08:00

Saidina Umar semasa cuba menyingkapi keperibadian seseorang, beliau sudah meletakkan piawaian tertentu. Beliau tidak mudah tertipu melihat postur dan penampilan seseorang. Beliau meletakkan kayu ukur tertentu bagi menilai agama dan akhlak seseorang itu. Ketika datang seorang lelaki yang memberikan kesaksian untuk seseorang, Umar bertanya kepadanya:

Umar : Adakah kamu mengenal orang ini?

Sahabat : Ya.

Umar :Adakah kamu berjiran dengannya dan mengetahui saat dia keluar masuk?

Sahabat : Tidak.

Umar :Adakah kamu pernah menemaninya dalam satu perjalanan (musafir) dan mengenal kemuliaan akhlaknya?

Sahabat :Tidak.

Umar :Adakah kamu pernah berinteraksi dengannya yang melibatkan dinar dan dirham (duit), sehingga kamu mengenal sifat hati-hatinya?

Sahabat :Tidak.

Umar :Mungkin kamu pernah melihatnya berdiri dan duduk solat di masjid, mengangkat kepalanya pada suatu ketika dan menundukkannya pada saat yang lain?

Sahabat :Ya.

Umar :Pergilah. Sungguh kamu tidak mengenalnya.

Taken from: Sis Fatimah Syarha

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Taken from Google Image

~~p/s: Sekarang mungkin lebih mudah. Facebook, twitter, blog etc.~~
~~Dush! Dush! Dush!~~

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Happiest People :) ~

2011-07-13T09:18:00.002+08:00

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Mohon Untuk Mati~

2011-07-11T22:46:00.002+08:00

This point did attract my attention while I am listening to a talk by Ustaz Kazim Elias, Fardhu-Fardhu Mandi. He did read one question been asked to him in front of his audience that sound more or less like this,

Question:
Ustaz,

Berdosa ke tak saya dah tak nak hidup kat dunia? Cukuplah dah 37 tahun. Tak larat dah nak hidup dengan banyak dugaan.

Answer:
We only have two reasons that allowed us to request for death. Other than these two reasons, never ask for death.

1. Apabila seorang ulama diminta untuk mengeluarkan fatwa-fatwa yang menyesatkan.
In case he is being asked to make a fatwa that will make lots of people stray away from the right path, he is allowed to pray and request for death to Allah. Hukum berdoa seperti ini adalah HARUS. But mind you, just pray for death. Not COMMIT SUICIDE.

2. Apabila sakit terlalu teruk, yang mungkin tiada harapan untuk sembuh atau pulih seperti sediakala.
People around him/her can pray so that Allah will take away his/her life since the condition is already too bad. Of course not the one who lying on the bed will pray for death, since he/she is also in unconscious condition.

Perjalanan rohku melengkapi sebuah kembara...

Singgah di rahim bonda sebelum menjejak ke dunia...

Menanti di barzakh sebelum melangkah ke Mahsyar...

Diperhitung amalan penentu syurga atau sebaliknya...

Taken from Google Image

p/s: I just rewrite the point according to my own style of writing. In the video, Ustaz Kazim speak properly in Malay. Please take notes. :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Judgmental~

2011-07-10T18:16:00.000+08:00

This video really captured my attention. I do agree with him! :D

Taken from youtube.

p/s: Are we among the judgmental ones?

"Saya kagum dengan kehebatan orang kita menilai tanpa bukti yang kukuh, valid dan tsabit."

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Short Notes: Heroes :) ~

2011-07-10T07:45:00.000+08:00

To all who had participated in BERSIH 2.0,

And then a hero comes along,

With a strength to carry on,

And you cast your fears aside,

Cause you know you can survive,

So when you feel like hope is gone,

Look inside you and be strong,

And you'll finally see the truth,

That a HERO lies in you...

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Missing~

2011-07-05T14:48:00.001+08:00

I am currently scream my lungs out to try to get to my home...

The workloads that seems to be never cease maybe the main factor that influencing my current mood...

O Allah,

Please give me the strength to hold on...

Bila hati menghadap Tuhan, baru ku sedar ada kelemahan...

Bimbang Kau singkirkan taubatku...

Kurayu Kau hulurkan keampunanMu padaku...

If you just believe...

What is plain to see...

Just open your heart...

And let His love flow through...

Setiap air mataku mengalir, Allah, aku lemah dan tak beerti...

Bila selangkah ku rapat padaMu, seribu langkah Kau dekat padaKu...

Hakikat bahagia itu adalah ketenangan apabila hati mengingati Tuhan...

Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies...

p/s: A combination of songs that I currently listening to.
p/s: Will be off to Kelantan Darul Naim for mid-sem break holidays. :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: The Doa' ~

2011-07-01T16:05:00.000+08:00

I was quite surprised once I received an SMS from unknown numbers few days ago until that person reveal who she/he is. It's not the sender that matter, but the content really makes me feel so relief that how Allah had planned the journey of my life all this while and how He had makes it turns to be so wonderful one. Subhanallah!

Previously, I did write an entry regarding doa' and how Allah had makes it becomes reality out of our mind expectation. Somehow, there are lots of obstacles that we need to face along the journey to achieve what we really want and of course we cannot deny the fact that sometimes, we almost become despair and loss hope. But, when we rethink about the iridescent journey that we have gone through all these days, I believe, all of us will smile alone thinking on how beautiful Allah had created the way and makes our life become so meaningful. :)

I cannot stop smiling until now since the memories of all the things that I've gone through all these days still keep on playing in my mind. It is so true that Allah is like what we think about Him and trust me, whatever good things that we keep on continuously praying for, He will never makes us disappointed and He even gives us the better one.

Allah says wait, and He gives better :)

Taken from Google Image

And your Lord proclaimed, "Pray to Me, I will accept; indeed those who stay conceited towards worshiping Me, will enter hell in disgrace."

[40:60]

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Suratan atau Kebetulan...~

2011-06-29T07:35:00.000+08:00

After I performed my Fajr prayer this morning, this video somehow makes me feel deeply calm...

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Short Notes: True Love :) ~

2011-06-24T12:18:00.000+08:00

Imam Ghazali noted a scholar who said that a person who truly loves Allah is,

“One who spends little time with people and much time alone; who is always in thought and outwardly silent; who is in a spiritual state that overtakes his sight, hearing and speech…who does not become sad if inflicted with a calamity, and if inflicted with hunger he is not aware…who looks to Allah in times of solace, who is happy with His company and speaks to Him intimately, and does not contend with the people of this world over their world.”

Missing these two little kids~

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Elasticity~

2011-06-23T12:00:00.003+08:00

Sebagai seorang hamba, adakalanya kita menjadi tersangat lemah tatkala berdepan dengan keadaan yang pada pandangan kita adalah amat sukar. Keadaan yang menguji elastic level kita, tatkala stress dan tension yang melanda berada di luar elastic limit yang kita ada. Dan pastinya, kita akan mengambil masa yang agak lama untuk back to the original shape setelah terbeban dengan stress dan tension yang berada di luar elastic limit diri kita.

Hakikatnya, kita mungkin mampu untuk meramal bahawa akan datang kepada kita akan sesuatu masalah, tetapi kita semua pasti tidak boleh meramal bilakah saatnya masalah itu akan tiba. Pokok utama di sini bukanlah sama ada kita akan diberi ujian ataupun tidak, tetapi adakah kita bersiap sedia untuk menghadapi permasalahan tersebut. Tanpa sedar, kita sebenarnya diberi masalah setiap hari dalam kehidupan kita, namun kita mungkin tidak melihatnya sebagai satu masalah kerana kita sebenarnya sudah bersiap sedia untuk menghadapi permasalahan tersebut.

Jika kita melihat seorang anak kecil yang baru berusia beberapa bulan, mereka perlu diberi imunisasi pada masa-masa tertentu untuk menguatkan sistem pertahanan badan mereka. Dan kita boleh lihat, tatkala anak kecil ini disuntik, mereka akan menangis, meraung menahan kesakitan. Si ibu pula biarpun merasa sedih mendengar tangisan si anak kecil, tetap membenarkan doktor meneruskan suntikan kepada anaknya kerana si ibu mengerti bahawa ada kebaikan di sebalik jarum suntikan tersebut. Semuanya tidak lain dan tidak bukan untuk kebaikan si anak kecil itu sendiri pada masa hadapan.

Begitu juga diri kita, masalah dan dugaan yang kita hadapi hakikatnya umpama jarum suntikan yang menyuntik si anak kecil. Kita acapkali mengeluh, seolah-olah membantah ujian yang Allah turunkan kepada kita. Sedangkan, Allah yang Maha Pencipta pasti mengetahui akan hikmah di sebalik ujian yang Dia berikan. Sebagai seorang hamba, kedudukan kita terhadapNya sebenarnya terlalu jauh untuk dibandingkan dengan kedudukan seorang anak kecil di hadapan ibu ataupun doktor.

Taken from Google Image

Di sebalik kesukaran, di situlah kekuatan.

Hitunglah kesyukuranmu, bukan kesukaranmu.

Sesekali tersungkur atau terjatuh, saya tidak mampu untuk menafikan bahawa kesannya terlalu menyakitkan. Adakalanya, kesan dari kesakitan itu mengambil masa untuk pulih dan mungkin juga memberi kesan sedikit sebanyak terhadap personaliti dan cara pandang kita terhadap sesuatu perkara.

Mungkin juga Allah menurunkan ujian kepada kita melalui sesuatu keadaan, melalui perantaraan hambaNya yang lain dan melalui pelbagai lagi cara, tetapi yang penting sebenarnya ialah sejauh mana kita beriman kepada Qada' dan QadarNya. Hal ini demikian kerana Allah tidak akan membebani seorang hambaNya dengan sesuatu di luar kemampuan mereka.

Renunglah, carilah diri dalam diri, kerana di sebalik setiap perkara yang terjadi, hakikatnya punyai hikmah yang pasti...

p/s: Nota untuk diri sendiri. :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Healing~

2011-06-19T17:07:00.006+08:00

A: Sampai kapan kau harus begini?

B: Aku pun tak tahu. Aku perlukan masa, kerana hatiku sungguh terluka.

A: Tapi, sampai bila?

B: Sampai masa menyembuhkan semuanya. Mungkin juga, kalau bukan aku, kau yang dulu pergi menghadap Dia.

A: Sudahlah, let bygone be bygone.

B: Mudah untuk kau berbicara. Tapi aku yang merasa. Sudahlah, aku minta maaf dan aku maafkan semuanya. Cuma aku perlukan masa. Tidak perlu untuk mencari aku, kerana aku akan kembali pada saat aku telah bersedia.

A: Tapi, harus sampai bila?

B: Mungkin sampai bila-bila. Jangan cari aku lagi.

*SKRIP TAMAT*

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Bukan Hak Milik~

2011-06-18T01:06:00.000+08:00

Tatkala menulis entry ini, hati saya sebenarnya dalam keadaan sebak. Terkejut, perasaan bercampur-baur, dan mungkin sedikit kekaguman. Mendapat jawapan yang saya rasakan bukan semua insan mampu memberikan jawapan yang sama, membuatkan saya agak terketar-ketar tangan semasa menaip entry ini. Saya sendiri hakikatnya tidak percaya masih ada insan yang punyai hati seperti ini, di saat hampir di seluruh dunia ini semua insan mahukan sesuatu itu kekal menjadi hak milik sendiri.

Mungkin ini kesan daripada membaca blog Dato Mustafa Kamal Bin Mohd Zaini. Beliau punyai tiga isteri. Dan melihat dari gambar yang ada, ternyata mereka bahagia. Dek kerana kekaguman yang mungkin agak ~~"malampau"~~ saya pada insan-insan yang berpoligami ini, saya pada mulanya hanya sekadar bertanya untuk melihat reaksi seorang sahabat yang insyaAllah bakal bertukar gelaran tidak lama lagi akhirnya menjadi seorang yang sangat berhati lembut, mudah terusik dan sedikit tersentuh setelah mendengar jawapan yang tidak diduga (untuk masa ini sahaja barangkali). Dialog mungkin diubah sedikit agar sesuai menjadi bacaan umum.

"Kagumlah dengan Dato Mustafa. Awak nanti macam mana? Bersedia nak bagi bakal suami berkahwin lain?" soal saya dengan keadaan yang masih agak excited membaca kisah-kisah insan yang bahagia berpoligami.

"Tak tahulah bersedia atau tak. Tengok dia macam mana. Kalau saya rasa dia mampu adil, insyaAllah saya izinkan. Ramai sangat lagi akhawat tak kahwin. Selfish sangat kalau saya nak simpan suami hanya untuk diri sendiri. Tapi kalau dia rasa tak mampu, tak perlulah. Nanti hanya sekadar menambahkan beban dosa dia," jawapannya menyebabkan saya jadi terdiam. Tidak tahu bagaimana meneruskan perbualan.

~~I don't believe if me, myself could ever say or write this kind of statement.~~

Taken from Google Image

Teringat pesanan seorang umi, suami milik Allah, bukan milik isteri. @_@

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Percaya~

2011-06-16T18:19:00.001+08:00

Saya percaya, dalam kehidupan setiap orang mempunyai prioriti yang tersendiri. Same thing goes to me. Bagi saya, nilai terpenting dalam hidup adalah percaya. Kasih sayang, hormat dan cinta jatuh di bawah percaya. Bila mana saya tidak percaya, nilai-nilai yang lain akan sukar untuk saya berikan dan hulurkan pada orang lain. Saya sendiri tidak tahu mengapa. Tetapi, saya memang meyakini, kepercayaan itulah yang menjadikan saya adalah saya sekarang.

Saya menyintai Allah kerana saya percaya akan adanya Allah.

Saya menyintai Rasul kerana saya percaya akan risalah yang Baginda bawakan.

Saya menyintai kedua orang tua saya kerana saya percaya bahawa setiap yang mereka lakukan adalah untuk kebaikan saya.

Saya menyintai adik-adik saya kerana saya percaya dalam setiap perkara yang kami lalui, adanya hikmah yang pasti dan semuanya punyai alasan tersendiri.

Saya menyintai para sahabat saya kerana saya percaya bahawa mereka akan sentiasa ada, biarpun hanya sekadar bisikan dalam doa dan mungkin takkan pernah diterjemahkan dalam bentuk perbuatan mahupun kata-kata.

Maka, apabila hilangnya elemen percaya saya terhadap sesuatu ataupun seseorang, maka nilai yang lain itu hanya tumbuh sekadar untuk mendidik diri saya bahawa saya perlu melakukan yang terbaik sebagai korban cinta saya kepada Pencipta. Hanya sekadar untuk berbasa-basi sesama manusia. Tidak lebih dari itu. Kerana yang dinamakan pengorbanan itu, adalah apabila kita berusaha untuk mem"please"kan keadaan, demi untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang terbaik dan kekal abadi.

Biar apapun definisi percaya, kita kenalah sentiasa ingat bahawa niat yang ikhlas itu adalah tonggak utama dalam setiap amalan. Saya tetap yakin, keikhlasan itu tetap boleh hadir, meskipun kita mempunyai peratusan kepercayaan yang rendah terhadap sesuatu perkara, keadaan mahupun seseorang...

Apabila menganalisis beberapa berita mutakhir, saya merasakan ada juga betulnya teori percaya saya ini. Kenapa wujud insan-insan yang tidak dapat menghormati pemimpin seperti mana umat terdahulu menghormati Rasulullah saw? Kenapa ada isteri yang boleh hilang rasa cinta pada suami yang juga dikahwini pada mulanya berasaskan rasa cinta? Pokok pangkalnya, berbalik kepada percaya. Bila mana kepercayaan itu telah hilang, maka lenyaplah segala rasa.

p/s: Ini sekadar pendapat peribadi. Mungkin betul dan mungkin juga salah sama sekali.

Taken from Google Image

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Kenapa Ada Neraka?

2011-06-15T23:56:00.001+08:00

While doing some research on individual design for my FYDP, I am also listening to a talk by Ustaz Kazim on Korban Cinta. Below are some quotes that I found interesting (more or less likely),

"Ustaz, Allah pendendam ke?"

"Allah tak bersifat pendendam..."

"Kalau Allah tak pendendam, kenapa orang jahat masuk neraka? Itu dendam... Kenapa Allah tak ampunkan?"

"Allah ciptakan neraka kerana ada orang yang tak teringin masuk syurga. Bila ada manusia yang tak teringin masuk syurga, Allah sediakan alternatif lain iaitu neraka. Bagi sesiapa yang tak kebulur masuk syurga, silalah masuk neraka. Allah bukan pendendam, Allah menyediakan alternatif.. Maka, bukan salah Allah kalau Allah humban kita ke dalam neraka, kerana kita sendiri yang memilih untuk ke neraka..."

Taken from Google Image

p/s: Untuk dapatkan sesuatu yang lebih baik dan lebih kekal, itulah namanya KORBAN. :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Facebook :D ~

2011-06-14T21:07:00.005+08:00

'Hai akak," sapa seseorang.

"Ye dik? May I help you?" saya menjawab.

"Kalau nanti akak jadi orang kaya, apa impian akak?" soalnya secara tiba-tiba.

"Nak hirer seseorang untuk uruskan Facebook and Twitter akak," jawabku dengan jujur. Dalam hatiku, engkau baru kenal aku sudah bertanya benda bukan-bukan. :P

"Perghh. Hebatlah akak!" balas insan yang merasakan dirinya muda daripadaku separa kagum.

"Of course. Memang pun," jawabku bangga.

"Boleh tahu nama? My name is Sham, and my full name is Shamsiah," kata adik itu.

"Oh, I am Izz, but people usually call me Ros.. Phew!" jawabku lalu pergi meninggalkannya sambil tersenyum dalam hati.

Maka, cerita tipu di atas pun tamat.

RM 1.8 juta untuk Facebook? Alahaila ~~kerajaanku sayang~~....

Mari baca :)

My Lovely Government :D

{Sila klik untuk bacaan lanjut)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Back~

2011-06-14T09:38:00.002+08:00

May all the assumptions and accusations will go back to you~

Shall I pray like this? @_@

Full stop. End.

Dear self,

The best deeds of great person is to forgive and forget.

Remember :)

Taken from Google Image

p/s: Suddenly I love to whisper lately. :D

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Whisper: Reveals~

2011-06-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

Oh Allah thank you...

For giving me strength to hold on...

Taken from Google Image

p/s: Because of one side, I will never forgive until the time heals. So ironic with previous entry right? (^_^)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Forgive :) ~

2011-06-12T00:21:00.000+08:00

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Short Notes: Reaction~

2011-06-11T11:33:00.002+08:00

"Hey, kau yang lambat bangun! Kenapa aku pula yang nak disalahkan? Jenuh menunggu kat parking 20 minit. Alih-alih, kau datang lambat ke kelas, nak salahkan orang pula," kata A dengan nada yang penuh dengan rasa tidak puas hati.

"Hey, kau dah tahu aku dah lambat, pergi tinggalkan kenapa? Lagilah lambat. Tak ada perikemanusiaan langsung," balas B yang pada masa yang sama turut berada dalam keadaan hati yang agak panas.

"Ada kau try SMS aku suruh tunggu? I've been waiting for you sampai aku pun lambat ke kelas tau," jawab A. Kali ini dengan muka yang penuh masam mencuka.

"Damn you!" kali ini B tidak dapat mengawal kemarahannya lagi lantas mengeluarkan kata seperti itu untuk kawan baiknya sendiri.

Selepas itu, tiada lagi istilah sahabat baik antara A dan B.

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Any conflict will never been settled if we use our emotion to control our mind instead of the mind controlling our emotion. In the event of any conflict arise, please put aside our emotion first before making any confession or statement. Please be aware that 90% of our reaction will lead to what will happen next as what Stephen Covey mentioned in his 90/10 principle.

Sometimes, people do choose to remain silence and other people will look at him or her as an unscrupulous person. But, we have to remember that not all people that choose to remain silence are exactly unscrupulous since there's exist people that do not want to make things worst and they choose to keep their mouth off.

Taken from Google Image

Last but not least, try not to be a very judgmental person, hear from both sides so you can think and act fairly, and please remember that those who always complain is not necessarily right. The silence side might not be wrong. :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Kasih kerana Allah :) ~

2011-06-10T07:19:00.006+08:00

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: The Weekends~

2011-06-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

This weekend quite awesome for me since it was among the colorful days that I've spent with few of my comrades. :)

Last Friday, I visited Oil & Gas Asia at KLCC and that exhibition was quite beneficial for me since there are lots of new inventions especially related to my FYDP II. Shell and tube heat exchangers, safety equipments as well as new invented drilling and water treatment technologies are amongst the new tools displayed during the exhibition. In spite of this, I also can see the trend of market related to oil and gas industries.

On the next day, I went to a talk organized by Pertubuhan IKRAM Malaysia at Dewan Sivik MBPJ with my sister. The talk by three international speakers from Egypt, Kuwait and Indonesia somehow give me more deep understanding on what is currently happening in Middle East. The title of the talk was Ikhwan Muslimin's Role in Building New Middle East. The opportunity to be part of this prestigious event somehow had open my eyes that how the revolution is the most precious gift from Allah swt since independence is actually part of Islam. This revolution also indirectly prove the failure of Western system in controlling people. In addition, the way of the speakers delivered their thoughts was very fun and what makes this talk become more interesting was because it used tri-lingual instead of bi-lingual. :D

Dr Nasser Sane (Kuwait): Who is the son of your father that is not your brother?

~~[siapa bijak pasti boleh jawab~~ ;D]

Yesterday, I spent few hours and money with my sister at Mid Valley. Something out of mind was happened and I thought it has made my weekend became more colorful somehow :D

The story begins when one of the Carrefour staffs asked us to participate in Pertandingan Melipat Baju Carrefour and both of us just directly agreed to join. Guess what? ~~I got top from bottom from the total of six participants~~. Not very bad I think. Hahahaha. ~~Pretty sure after this I need to go for housewife courses in order to enhance my clothes folding skills.~~ *wink.wink*

Taken from Google Image

~~I think this all for now. FYP and FYDP are crying to get my attention~~ :P

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Diam~

2011-06-01T00:39:00.004+08:00

Kadang-kadang perlu untuk kita diam.

Supaya lidah yang tajam ini terbenteng dari mengucapkan kata yang sia-sia.

Supaya kita boleh beribadah tanpa perlu bersusah payah.

Supaya kita dapat memberikan istirehat kepada pencatat-pencatat amalan kita.

Supaya kita boleh "berhias tanpa perlu berhias". Tetapi, jika boleh, diam pun biarlah dengan wajah yang manis. Bukan seperti cuka. Itu namanya body language. Boleh menyebabkan hati orang lain terguris juga. Tapi kalau kita sudah rasa itulah wajah kita dan orang lain tetap mahu terasa juga, itu tandanya iman mereka sedang lemah. Tanda iman kita sedang lemah ialah mudah terasa. Jadi, berhati-hatilah di saat hati kita terlalu cepat terasa. Banyakkan istighfar dan muhasabah diri.

Taken from Google Image

”Barangsiapa yang banyak perkataannya, nescaya banyaklah silapnya.

Barang siapa yang banyak silapnya, nescaya banyaklah dosanya.

Dan barangsiapa yang banyak dosanya, nescaya neraka lebih utama baginya”.

(Riwayat ABU NAIM)

Menasihati orang yang bersalah itu tidak salah, yang salah ialah apabila suka memikirkan kesalahan orang. Mari semak diri sendiri :)

Taken from Google Image

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Adakah Kita Dicintai? ~

2011-05-30T08:35:00.002+08:00

This question might be hard to be answered...

*Pause*

But yet, according to Amru Khalid in his book, Hati Sebening Mata Air, there are seven signs for those who are being love by the Ultimate Power, Allah swt. Jazakillahu khairan to my naqibah for lending me this book during our rehlah... All seven points given in this book somehow makes me think and refresh back all the things I've done through all the years that I've living in.. The nature sound of water flowing makes my heart becomes more impressed with the contents as well..

What are the seven signs?

*Pause*

Before that, lets us try to look into ourselves.

Sometimes, have you ever think that it's hard for us to give without any intention to be repay back? Don't answer it here. The answer is inside your heart. That is why, the word called S.I.N.C.E.R.E do exist. Because not all can give with love. People can give without love too. ~~Like me, honestly. Sometimes. Yes, I do.~~ How about you? *Think, please*

OK. Back to the topic. The seven signs are basically as follow. But, before that, in the event of any of these signs never exist in ourselves, lets us put more effort so that Allah will grant us with it. To get Allah's love is not that easy, because as human, we cannot against our lust for most of the times. Don't believe? *Think, again*

Allowed me to write in Malay. :)

1. Terjaga dari pesona dunia.

How many hours do we have in a day? Anyone got more or less than 24 hours? How many times we take or perform any actions according to what Allah ask us to do? Or maybe, we do lots of gossiping? And hurting others too? *Think*

If we think about Allah most of the times in that 24 hours per day, it means that Allah loves us.

Feel disappointed with others? Hopeless? Feeling of despair and lost hope? Close your eyes and pray. Pray to Him, He will answer it sooner or later.

2. Taat beragama.

Nabi SAW bersabda, "Sesungguhnya Allah memberi dunia kepada orang yang mencintai dunia dan juga kepada orang yang tidak mencintainya, tetapi Dia memberi agama hanya kepada orang yang Dia cintai. Barangsiapa diberi agama oleh Allah, maka Dia telah mencintainya."

Thus, if there's any individual start to learn or practice what she or he learn from Islam, it is a reflection of Allah's love. How about us? Let's check it out.

3. Mendalami agama.

Ini boleh diperolehi secara bertahap melalui ketaatan kepada agama. From zero knowledge to at least have some knowledge. From less knowledge to more knowledge. Keep on learning about Islam from day to day.

Mula-mula, mungkin tiada kefahaman tentang Islam waima sedikit pun. Tetapi, as time goes by, he or she keep on trying to increase his/her knowledge until at last, mereka dikenali sebagai ahli agama.

4. Sikap lemah lembut.

Trying to be harsh? Forget about it! *Sigh*

Apabila seseorang dianugerahi sifat lemah lembut sehingga menjadi hamba yang penyantun, maka sebenarnya ia dicintai oleh Allah. Sebaliknya, orang yang tidak mampu mengawal dirinya, walaupun hanya kerana persoalan yang kecil sahaja, ini akan membuatkan ia jauh dari dicintai Allah. Like what? *Think*

Nowadays, there's lots of ways to express our "harshness". Not only by action. Twitter. Facebook. Blog. Song. Sindiran. Isyarat mata. Isyarat badan. Lampu isyarat. Banyak lagi. ~~Err... Blog pun ade?~~

Am I one of them? *Think*

5. Diberi kemudahan melakukan ketaatan.

Before off to bed, berniat untuk subuh di awal waktu. Suddenly, forget to set the alarm. But surprisingly, boleh bangun few minutes before Subuh. Allah mudahkan jalan untuk melakukan ketaatan. Tanda Dia cinta. This is example. There are lots of examples.

Mahu pergi solat Jumaat. Hari hujan. Suddenly, ada member offer naik kereta. Sedangkan sebelum itu tak pernah ada orang kisah. Maka pergilah masjid dengan dua kaki kurniaan Allah dengan tabah demi menjalankan perintahNya hampir setiap minggu. Tetapi, tidak pada hari yang hujan itu. Pertolongan datang tanpa dijangka. If that happen, it's one of the signs of Allah's love. Sweet kan? *Think*

6. Diberi kesulitan melakukan kemaksiatan.

Baru nak mula mengumpat seorang kawan, tiba-tiba mummy call tanya, dah makan tengah hari? Maka terus berbual tentang lauk makanan tengah hari. Padahal mummy di Australia, dan kita di Libya sedang kesukaran mencari makanan sebab NATO sedang melancarkan perang ke atas rejim Ghadaffi. Kawan kita di sebelah yang baru hendak join mengumpat, terus pergi call daddy dia di USA untuk tanya tentang lunch juga. Minta resepi on how to make English Lunch Cake. Maka, selamatlah kita dari menjadi muflis di hari akhirat. Terselamat dari menjadi golongan yang dimaksudkan dalam Surah Al-Humazah.

Baru hendak try keluar dengan seseorang yang mungkin berpotensi menjadi special boyfriend/girlfriend, tiba-tiba terkantoi dengan coursemate yang merupakan ahli kariah majid Kampung Nangka. Di manakah Kampung Nangka? I also do not know. This is example. Maka, disebabkan tidak mahu kantoi, kita terus melangkahkan kaki pergi ke library alone untuk cari material projek tahun separa akhir, dan si dia terus mengambil jalan untuk melangkah ke masjid walaupun baru jam 9 pagi. Juga melangkah seorang diri. Maybe boleh solat sunat Dhuha. Maka, hari itu telah diselamatkan dari fitnah dunia. Jika ini terjadi, itu tandanya Allah sedang menyulitkan kita untuk melakukan kemaksiatan. Tanda kecintaan-Nya kepada kita.

7. Husnul Khatimah

Akhir hayat orang yang dicintai Allah akan ditutup dengan pengakhiran yang baik. Ada sebahagian orang yang semasa hidupnya nampak taat pada ajaran agama, akan tetapi ketika meninggal dunia, amal perbuatannya adalah menentang Allah. Kerana itu, sepatutnya setiap orang perlu bimbang akan kematiaannya saat sedang dalam kemaksiatan. Sebaliknya, amal-amal ketaatan hendaklah sentiasa dijaga agar husnul khatimah menjadi penutup usia.

Maka, selagi jantung berdegup, fikir dengan teliti sebelum teringin atau terdetik mahu membuat dosa. Bimbang kalau-kalau terkena heart attack dan terus meninggal dunia ketika sedang hack paper final exam dengan harapan mahu dapat A++.

Conclusion.

Semoga kita tergolong dalam golongan yang dicintai Allah swt. Amin Ya rabb~

Credit to iluvislam.com

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Rehlah :) ~

2011-05-29T18:55:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah,
Semoga semuanya dianugerahkan hati sebening mata air...
Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin...

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Am I Strong Enough?

2011-05-28T07:42:00.000+08:00

Hakikatnya bahagia itu
Adalah ketenangan
Bila hati mengingati Tuhan

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Short Notes: Unsolve~

2011-05-27T12:55:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, there are things that better remain unsolve...

Bukankah pelangi yang indah itu muncul selepas hujan?

Taken from Google Image

p/s: Currently in mix feeling after figure out something inside the report :(

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Start Again :) ~

2011-05-26T07:45:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah, after more than 1000km distance traveled, I finally arrived at my campus last Tuesday. However, the journey from KL to Batu Gajah by using ETS somehow gives me motion sickness, which I rarely faced. The effect made me feel kind of dizzy and drowsy, all day long yesterday. Even I need to put my eyes off from my lecturer's slides during my only class yesterday.

Since I cannot close my eyes whenever I tried to sleep yesterday evening, I tried to surf some information regarding motion sickness. Based on one website, it is actually a normal response to real, perceived, or even anticipated movement. Although this condition is fairly common and often only a minor nuisance, it may be incapacitating for people who travel frequently -- although the more you travel, the more you get used to the motion. The main cause of motion sickness is basically due to conflict signals send to brain from inner ear, body and the eyes. This makes me think like, erm... even different parts of our body do have conflict within themselves, how we can expect that conflict will never exist between two different humans?

Taken from Google Image

The motion sickness somehow taught me that there are lots of unseen things that are basically related to our life. Even the cause of the sickness itself may teach us how beautiful Allah gives the comparison or parable so we may learn and get the lessons from it. Subhanallah :)

Start Again

Yep, once my foot step inside UTP, it's indirectly means that everything will start all over again. As long as I did not graduate from this university, the cycle will keep remains as usual. Even though I cannot focus very much during my first class yesterday due to the sickness, there are still many classes to be attend throughout this semester. I still and will always remember one of my comrades advice, do not let what you can't do to interfere with what you can do. :)

May Allah bless and eases all the way ahead. Lets us together try to fulfill every second that we have till the end of our time only to get His pleasure and of course to be one of the members that will be selected to enter His forever paradise.

Taken from Google Image

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Past, Present & Future~

2011-05-23T22:21:00.001+08:00

"JANGAN MENYESALI MASA LALU, JANGAN TAKUT DENGAN MASA SEKARANG, DAN JANGAN PESIMIS DENGAN MASA DEPAN"

Hadis Riwayat Muslim,

"Mintalah kepada Allah dan jangan merasa lemah. Jangan kamu katakan, "Andaikata aku melakukan itu dan ini, pasti akan jadi begini dan begitu. Tapi katakanlah, "Allah telah menentukan takdir manusia dan apa yang Dia kehendaki pasti akan terjadi. Kerana sesungguhnya kata-kata: "seandainya" akan membuka peluang kepada hasutan syaitan."

p/s: Mendoakan hari esok berlalu dengan lancar... Rabbi yassir wala tua'sir...

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Salahudin Ayubi~

2011-05-19T22:55:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah...

Finally, yesterday I have finished reading two of my collections after quite a long time; Aisyah Ummul Mukminin and Salahudin Ayubi Penakluk Jurusalem. I admit that reading these kind of historical books somehow had boost my energy and spirit and I hope that courage will last for quite a long time.

Alas, I have only four more days to spend in my hometown before I fly back to my campus. Hopefully, everything will be fine since I need to admit that as time goes by, things gonna be tougher. FYDP II, FYP I and another one or two unsure subjects will be my closest friends for next semester. Why I said unsure? Because I also do not know either I want to take one or two another subjects instead of my two projects.

Hurm..

I would like to share some of interesting parts in Salahudin Ayubi written by Abdul Latip Talib. I think that this part quite relevant with today's situation where we can see there a lot of Muslims all over the world but they did not unite together as sisters and brothers.

Taken from page 249 onwards,

"Apabila umat Islam bersatu, mereka kuat dan musuh tidak berani melakukan kezaliman, tetapi apabila umat Islam berpecah belah, mereka ibarat buih yang banyak tetapi lemah," kata Sultan Salahudin bin Ayubi.

"Benar, Rasulullah pernah berdoa tiga perkara. Pertama, umat Islam tidak dihapuskan dari muka bumi dan Tuhan menerimanya. Kedua, umat Islam tidak mati kelaparan dan doa itu juga dimakbulkan oleh Tuhan. Doa yang ketiga pula supaya umat Islam tidak berpecah belah, tetapi doa itu tidak dimakbulkan Tuhan," Bahaudin pula menyampuk.

"Mengapa Tuhan tidak makbulkan doa nabi supaya umatnya tidak berpecah belah?" tanya Panglima Muluk.

"Allah hendak menguji siapa umat Islam yang kuat imannya," jawab Sultan Salahudin bin Ayubi.

The first doa by our Prophet somehow remind me of our discussion during halaqah with Umi last Tuesday. Umi did mentioned that how grateful we should be since Allah always give us the chances to repent and back to the right path even though we have commit lots of sins. Compared to those who live during Noah's, Lot's, Moses's and Salih's for example, they were not given any chances to repent. Allah directly punished them without any signs after they have been remind by their Prophets at that moment and as a follower of Muhammad saw, we shall be thankful and always remind ourselves that every second passed should not be wasted with nonsense matters which can make us stray from the right track. Allah loves us, that's why we're given many chances to repent from our mistakes.

p/s: While waiting for my sister to complete her medical check-up this evening, I have bought three more new books; Muhammad Al Fateh Penakluk Konstantinopel, Petunjuk Sepanjang Jalan and Aku dan Al Ikhwan Al Muslimun. Hope can finish reading those before fly this 24th :)

p/s: Is there still exist a man like Salahudin Ayubi in today's generations? Wondering....

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: A Relief :) ~

2011-05-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, all thanks is to Allah~

Today I managed to meet all my halaqah-mates at Dr Sadiah's home. Such a big relief, Alhamdulillah! :)

Meeting all my sisters in such a calm surrounding somehow had brings back my heart to the right track which I think had lost its path for quite a few moments. We discussed a lot about many things, including one big project which I never think that I will have the opportunity to do it. May Allah eases all the way, InsyaAllah. :)

When we discussed about Chapter Ar-Rum, verse 21, something had captured my attention while Umi was elaborating about the real meaning and hidden secret of the sequence in that verse. She did mentioned that Allah had guided us through this chapter that, for every single man (same thing also goes to woman), Allah had created a partner for them, then we may find repose in them, then, He put between these married couple the affection and mercy.

"And among His Signs is this, that He created for you wives from among yourselves, that you may find repose in them, and He has put between you affection and mercy. Verily, in that are indeed signs for a people who reflect."

Why I put kind of big emphasization on the word then here?

Umi said that actually, Allah had given us the proper steps that we shall follow in order to build a sakinah, mawaddah wa rahmah family through this verse. Unfortunately, most of people nowadays are practicing the wrong way by finding the affection and mercy in their future life partner first prior to get married and this phenomenon somehow had "killed" themselves when Allah had taken back these affection and mercy that they have found previously inside their partner once they get married. Can you think why this kind of phenomenon can happen? By rational thought, it is as simple as ABC, 123. Allah is our Creator and He had guided us on the right way that we shall take, but we did not follow the guidance that been provided to us. Plus, we go far ahead and move far forward by neglecting all His orders although we know deeply by heart that what we do is actually stray away from His path!

Taken from Google Image

By right, according to this verse, we shall get married first, then we may find repose in our partner, and then Allah will put these affection and mercy between the two married person. We shall understand truly that mawaddah wa rahmah are basically belongs to Allah and He can give and take this precious gift from us whenever He wants to. Thus, thinking or perception like "Did he my Mr Right?" or "Did him the best person that I shall get married with?" should never exist once we have did our Istikharah and give full submission and hope only to Allah swt. Remember, if we did everything only for Allah and we only rely on Him once we have decided on everything based on His guidance, Allah will always be with us regardless how good or bad the condition that comes after.

Another thing that I think quite interesting to be shared here is about a quote taken from a book from Indonesia (sorry, I can't remember the title).

"Ibadah is not a burden, but the most precious gift from Allah swt"

Taken from Google Image

"Whenever we get closer to Allah, we will always get the calmness that we desired"

"Mengumpat adalah refleksi pada kotornya hati"

Taken from Google Image

"Agama adalah fitrah yang suci, dan perkara yang haram adalah racun kepada fitrah ini"

"Kekayaan terletak pada hati yang qanaah"

"Hasad dengki menghilangkan ketenangan dalam hati"

I think, this is all for now. Renung-renungkan, dan selamat beramal! :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Happy Teachers Day & 4K~

2011-05-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

Dear all teachers regardless where you are for time being, Happy Teachers Day! :)

May all your kindness will be repay with the best rewards by Allah s.w.t...

You're the heroes, without you, we are not who we are today...

MRSM Kuching [2002-2006]

UTP [2007-2011] InsyaAllah...

Last Friday, I had the opportunity to watch "Tanyalah Ustazah", a talk show hosted by an Ustazah which I cannot remember her name. One of the guests did asked about some tips for a working mother on how to teach and raise up their children. Since most of my friends including myself were in final year, I think the tips are quite beneficial to be shared here. Basically, the tips can be simplified into 4K, which are (in Malay):

1. Komitmen.

What I still can remember, as we can give our commitment to our work, same things shall be applied in educating our children as well. Commitment is basically a major factor that will make everything runs well. If we can give our commitment, insyaAllah, we will be able to overcome any obstacles that we face by hook or by crook.

2. Konsistensi.

Consistency is another factors that we must practice in educating our children. For example, let say we have something to teach which to be implemented in daily life to our children for today, please make sure that on the next day onwards, we keep on remind them to practice things that we have taught in a good manner. One statement that I love most when she mentioned about this tip was:

"Jangan sampai akhlak kita runtuh pada saat kita ingin memperbetulkan akhlak anak-anak kita."

Wondering what does this statement really means? I believe all of us can understand the meaning by ourselves.

3. Kreativiti.

Once we return from our work, those who do not have any helper or maid might have lists of activities that need to be done before comes the next day. She also mentioned that it is lucky if we have a husband that willing to help us even to fold up the clothes, but for those who didn't, trying to put the clothes in a tidy way without fold it up also shows our creativity in order to avoid messy environment inside our home. Remember, this is not lazy, this is creative :)

4. Ketaqwaan.

This is basically the ultimate factor that we shall always remember in educating our children. Every single thing that we do will indirectly reflect our children in various way. Semakin jauh kita pergi dari Allah, we cannot expect our children will run nearer towards Allah. Allah akan menjaga hambaNya yang sentiasa berusaha memelihara Allah.

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Nikmat Dunia~

2011-05-15T22:42:00.002+08:00

Ibnu Munkadir berkata: “Bagiku nikmat dunia ini hanya ada pada tiga perkara, qiamullail, silaturrahim dan solat berjemaah”. Wahai insan yang beriman, renungkanlah dirimu agar kamu mengetahui hakikat dirimu sendiri, dengan demikian kamu akan mengenali Pencipta Yang Maha Agung. Berilah penawar dalam jiwa agar ia tetap suci dan tunduk pada Ilahi.

Alhamdulillah~

Manage to visit the newborn Nur Najwa Khairina~

This semester have been quite meaningful for me...

Looking at the pure face from heaven, somehow had bring the calmness into my heart..

Praying and hoping the best for all of you, babies~

"May I know where currently I am, mummy?" Nur Najwa Khairina.

"This must be a sister, not aunty :P" Lynn.

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Tranquility~

2011-05-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

Ikhlaslah menjadi diri sendiri agar hidup penuh dengan ketenangan dan keamanan.

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Yang Tersimpan~

2011-05-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah~

Currently, I am trying to teach myself to always remember saying Alhamdulillah in whatever situations I am involve in.

La haw la wala quwwata illa billah~

I am trying to strengthen my heart by saying this kalimah whenever I heard or see the things that I don't like and I need to force myself dealing with it.

Astaghfirullah hal a'zim~

I try to melt my heart by remember Allah through this kalimah so I won't stray too far from the right path.

Firstly, this entry might makes some people feel kind of offended or uneasy. In lieu to this, it is highly advisable to those who are very sensitive, or maybe very judgmental, or love to make assumptions to discontinue reading this entry. This entry basically all about my feelings, regardless I know or do not know what actually had happened. Any feelings after continue reading this entry are basically at your own risks.

1) A secret makes a woman, woman.

In life, there are the things that we only feel safe to share it with few numbers of people that we actually trust a lot. How do you feel when things that quite personal to you been revealed by the person that you trust a lot? Plus, it's not been revealed to a person, but to too many persons. Can you build the trust back once you encounter with this type of problem? Remember, trust takes year to establish and moment to destroy. Think, think and think!

I was once been trapped in this type of problem when I did kind of curhat with a person that I trust a lot. Surprisingly, something related with my curhat have been mailed to everyone and after that, the situation that I described in my curhat have becomes a very popular and famous example in any meeting or any situation that you may called it as meeting or things-that-similar-to-meeting for almost the whole of this semester. Please, try to put yourself in my shoes and think, think and think!

2) Halo error.

Do you know what halo error really means? OK, let me tell you. In Human Resource Management terms, halo error basically referring to one of the most common errors in evaluating a person's performance appraisal. This error is happen when you mark a person as totally good or maybe totally bad just because of one factor.

For me, a person that always do this kind of error is basically a judgmental person, and errr.. those judgmental people, please discontinue reading this entry. This is the second time I do this reminder and please, never blame me for this entry since I have remind you.OK?

What is the significance of this halo error to my life through out this semester? Ahaaa, lets me keep it as my life secret. Just want to tell you that, a judgmental person shall not regret if people around him or her will also react the same towards them. Hello my dear, what you give, you get back! (One of my dearest have remind me about this meaningful quote.) Thank you dear :)

Another point is, shall we just trust a people at one side and never takes into account how the other side actually feel, think or have gone through? Think, think and think!

3. Interfering ones personal life.

This is basically thing I hate the most. Mind you, it's kind of "pantang-nenek-moyang" for me if there is anybody outside try to interrupt into my personal life. I believe, everybody knows how open I am and I will tell you the real things happened when I am ready to get any feedback regardless how good or bad it will be. Asking a person or trying to get to know things from people that only knows about something related to me from his or her own observation might be a wrong step. How to say ya?

OK, I don't mind if you still want to believe 100% story from one side. But, why don't you try to ask me first on what did I actually have done rather than you also comes with so many "unnecessary" status or maybe entry or maybe anything in non verbal way which I know you are trying soooo hard to tell anybody around you that I am bad and you are pretty good? Please, think, think and think! Remember, I always say this sentence to anybody around me, "Aku paling tak boleh if ada orang try to advice me about this and that but sooner, he or she will do the same thing. If later sikit, boleh la nak terima...Kannnnnnnnnnn"

The phone call, stalker and sudden gtalk. Haha~ Always be remember till the end of time. Good try anyway. Keeps it up, dude!

4) Unnecessary stress.

Hahaha. This phenomenon makes me always feel kind of doubt about what relationship really means. Let me put a very high emphasization on this point. You will never feel stress about others if you do not have any bad perception towards that person. Remember this. Keep it at the best pisition in your mind so you can remember this point forever. Put this inside your heart as well. Please!

Erm, shall I elaborate more about this? Erm.. I think it's better not. But please, put this in our mind and heart ya~

5) Unnecessary thoughts.

Thoughts. We can express our thoughts in many way. Isn't it? Anybody disagree? Ahaaaaaaaa.. Sometimes, we can express our thoughts through verbal word, or maybe through non-verbal way. But why I wanna say about this point? Hurm...

Sometimes, I do believe that my own status might makes everyone feel stress (can we say this as unnecessary stress or not?). But, there are many times that we shall keep our inner feeling for our own. I won't elaborate more on this point, but, please, think, think and think!

One thing that I always put in my mind and heart, if you want to tell or confess something to a person, please, do it by verbal way. Non-verbal way may leads to misperception. Misperception may leads to misunderstanding. Misunderstanding may leads to negative feeling. Negative feeling may leads to bad relationship. Can you see this?

Maybe this time I also have done the same thing since I did this entry which basically kind of confession by non verbal way, so, can you tell me what do you feel now? Is it good? Or, you might love it very very much? Or, you feel kinda @#$@^$*&$?

Conclusion.

This is basically a general entry but I am currently writing it with a bit of my emotional interference. As I have mentioned above, reading this entry is basically at your own risks since this is about "Yang Tersimpan". Shall there any regret or uneasy feeling arise, please forgive me but as I keep on mentioning for many times, continue reading this entry is basically at your own risks.

Good bye 4th year 1st semester. Thanks for all the memories.

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Yang Terindah :) ~

2011-05-08T07:48:00.001+08:00

Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia

Hingga ku terasa indah~ :)

Dear mama, mummy and mak ~~(since I and my youngest sister keeps on changing the way we call our mom depending on situations~~ :P)...

Selamat Hari Ibu (^_^)

p/s -> 1.25 hours to my second final exam paper.. As mom always said, just do it~!

Another happy news to be shared..

6 May 2011 -> newcomer of our big family, Nur Najwa Khairina Binti Mohamad Azahar~ See you this 12th baby!

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Can I Come Back?

2011-05-02T07:48:00.001+08:00

"Can I come back, after been missing for a long time? After sinking to deep?"

Ikhlas ialah saudara muslim itu meniatkan setiap kata, tindakan dan jihad yang dilakukan hanya untuk Allah, mencari keredaan dan ganjaranNya tanpa mengharapkan harta atau kemasyhuran atau kedudukan atau pangkat atau kemajuan atau kemunduran. Ini bermakna dia merupakan pejuang fikrah dan akidah bukan memperjuangkan matlamat dan kepentingan peribadi.

Katakanlah: Sesungguhnya sembahyangku dan ibadatku, hidupku dan matiku, hanyalah untuk Allah Tuhan yang memelihara dan mentadbirkan sekalian alam. Tiada sekutu bagiNya, dan dengan yang demikian sahaja aku diperintahkan. (Al-An‘am: 162-163)

Dengan ini saudara muslim akan memahami maksud apa yang sering dilaungkannya:
“Allah matlamat kami” dan “Allah Maha besar dan segala puji bagi Allah”.
Rukun Ikhlas-Hasan AlBana

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Break~

2011-05-01T01:00:00.002+08:00

After such a hectic and kind of miserable life, finally I have a break. At least, even not for last. May Allah eases and bless all the way.With the name of Allah, the most gracious and merciful, ~~I start my final exam preparation~~~

Must keep in mind: Because effort never determine the results, just follow the sunnatullah. Never neglect the syariatullah.

Quotes from Dengan NafasMu by Ungu:

Dan demi nafas yang telah Kau hembuskan dalam kehidupanku

Ku berjanji

Ku akan menjadi yang terbaik~

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Nothing You Confess, Makes Me Love You Less~

2011-04-13T15:26:00.000+08:00

As time goes by, I realized that sometimes confession bring a big means not only to me but everyone around me. Somehow, it makes me becomes a better person, maybe in both direct and indirect way. But still, the tradition of speak about something at the back keeps going on until today, which actually can turn to be a silence killer in all kinds of relationship.

I was born in a family where my parents will try to sit together with me and tell me what are the things that I have done correctly and what are the things that I shall not repeat and improve in the future. As I grow older, I realized how important this kind of confession was, and indirectly, it makes my relationship with my parents become closer as time goes by.

I remember when I was keep mumbling with my mom due to the workloads that I need to do once I return from the terminal where I performed my industrial training, my mom just smile patiently and said to me that this is the reality if I turn to be a working mother in the future. She said that by hook or by crook, I must get ready to face this type of situation since it is a nature for those woman that not hire any maid to help them to do all the home works.Even sometimes, those who hiring a maid also still need to do this since this is what do we called as responsibility. Dear mom, nothing you confess, makes me love you less~

Once upon a time during my early days in UTP, I always called my father whenever I face any types of difficult situations. Somehow, my daddy always said to me, why don't you ask your friend because I am also not familiar with Perak. I was kind of offended when my daddy told me that, but now I realized that I cannot rely on him all the times since there will be a time and situation where I must do everything on my own and rely on my friends. Dear dad, nothing you confess, makes me love you less~

I remember when my naqibah told me that most of the times, we need to fix with people needs and not try to beg for people in order to fix in with our own needs. Yes, we may beg for it but only for sometimes. We live to give most of the times, not to receive all the times. Patience and prayer are the strongest weapon that we shall have in order to ensure we can face all the obstacles come into our life. And now I realized, how true this fact is and of course, I wanna say it again that nothing you confess, makes me love you less~

Most of the times, prior to close my eyes, I always try to recap all the things that I have done through out the day. Sometimes, I can feel that how ungrateful I was, since I was kind of not appreciating people around me. People may come and go slowly and suddenly. There is also a case where these people go without saying goodbye and even no hint at all that we will never meet again.

It is important for us actually to confess on all the things that might burden our head and heart in order to ensure there will be no hard feeling between each other. It's just the way we confess that need to be adjustable according to the type of the person. Different people might need different approaches and I do believe that as time goes by, we shall understand our friends character very well.

Those who had advised me not to think bad about others, avoid to make any assumptions, learn to forgive and forget, try to understand others, accept people mistakes and learn, never hold any grudge, be co-operative, and many more good advises, I am glad that you have be brave enough to advise and confess to me. Believe me that nothing you confess, makes me love you less....

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: Transitional State~

2011-04-02T08:26:00.000+08:00

After quite some times, I finally manage to update something here. Yes, quite some times. I really meant it! As time goes by so fast, I can feel that everything that I do in this semester were like I am competing in a competition. I really need to be quick, fast, hurry, precise, accurate and everything that might relate to fast and quality, you just name it! Are these are the things that my previous seniors faced while completing their final year requirements? Now I understand, the powerful of statement that seems like I used everyday to persuade myself. "Never mind, this year gonna be the last one.. Just be patient. Bear it!"

Somehow, maybe things happened around me seems like giving me kind of surprise. Or maybe, I am in that transitional state or stage, where my mind still keep saying that I am young, but in reality, my heart do also agree that I am getting older. Older? Yep! That's it.

Before I'm doing my industrial training last June, it is seldom for me to hear about marriage, babies, dowries, and anything that falls under this category. But this semester, almost everyone around me do talk about this. Plus, few of my sisters and friends gonna end their "single status" soon, and some of them are walking towards another world that we-do-call-as m.t.b. M.T.B? Yep, mother-to-be. Of course everyone of us will be having that "Aunty" or "Mak Cik" status soon, but I already told those M.T.B to advice their child to call me as "Sister" or "Kakak" only. Honestly, I am not ready yet to be called with that title. Must be everyone that read this entry might think like, what the????????????? Hehe :P

Somehow, this transitional state seems fun, but of course, I can't avoid myself from having kind of sad feeling deep down inside my heart. I still cannot help myself to avoid the sense and feeling that this sister/ these sisters have been taken or will be taken soon by a person that we called as husband. Yes, I know that the ukhuwah and relationship is still there, but I strongly believe, the situation will never be the same.How could you expect the change of title from "Miss" to "Madam" will never change a particular person since the world they are facing is also different? But of course, the spirit, loves and all the memories that been treasured together will always be remain. Forever~

Another thing that I wanna share is about the academic assessment methods. So far, I can tell you that I have only a very few number of quizzes and tests for this semester. But, it still like not giving me enough time to be free and easy. It seems like all the assessment methods used by lecturers are more on relating the theoretical with practice, besides need us to move here and there a lot! I can say that I am quite happy while performing the tasks, but somehow, it makes me tired and fatigue. All of the assessments somehow need you to rely on the other people as well since only few assessment are being done on individual basis. The rest? All are in group! I am not saying that I am dealing with wrong persons, but the point that I wanna stress out here is to keep the good relation amongst your teammates and comrades are not an easy tasks. Considering others availability, give and take, trying to accept them as who they are, understanding their nature of working, knows how to handle their weaknesses and utilize their strength are some of the things that I need to learn and sometimes, I can say that it makes myself better in improving my interpersonal skills. But of course, the cloud is not always blue (this is totally a direct translation.Hehe :D). After all, patience is the utmost value that I need to hold in order to make me feel less stress and to ensure the possibility for others to get hurt are also less.

I think, this is enough for this time. It may takes me another few weeks to update since the works that I need to complete are queuing like fishes in the UTP's lake waiting for some breads. May Allah bless and eases all the journey ahead... InshaAllah..

Just want to share one quote that I keep in holding in order to make me feel determine to complete all the things,

"Dan kerana TuhanMu, bersabarlah" [74:7]

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Short Notes: Pergi Tak Kembali~

2011-03-10T19:38:00.004+08:00

Sudah seperti agak lama rasanya jari-jemari saya tidak menaip sesuatu untuk blog ini. Kesibukan dengan pelbagai urusan adakalanya menyebabkan saya hilang minat atau rasa untuk mencoretkan sesuatu di laman sesawang ini. Sedar tak sedar, sudah minggu ketujuh pengajian semester ini hampir berakhir.. Dan melihat kepada takwim akademik, saya sedikit cemas. Dengan bebanan dan tuntutan akademik dan hal-hal lain yang kian berat dan bertambah, adakalanya saya turut bimbang andai masa yang ada tidak terisi dengan coretan malaikat pada sebelah kanan.

Semalam saya dikejutkan dengan pemergian seorang sahabat. Biarpun sekadar mengenali nama dan rupa, berita kematian acapkali membuatkan tubuh saya jadi menggeletar. Betapa, saat kita kembali itu tidak pernah dipercepatkan atau dilambatkan, waima hanya sesaat.. Tidak kira usia dan sejauh mana persiapan kita menghadapi panggilan pulang itu, Izrail tetap takkan pernah leka dan terus menepati masa untuk menjalankan tugasnya... Hidup akan terus berjalan, cuma berbeza fasa.. Dan setiap fasa itu, kita sudah dibekalkan dengan persediaan dari Pencipta, dan terpulang kepada kita bagaimana hendak memanfaatkan bekalan tersebut...

Allah sudah menjelaskan dalam Surah Al-Munafiqun ayat ke 11, betapa sesungguhnya masa untuk kita kembali itu sudah ditetapkan waktunya. Dan sebagai hamba yang tidak pernah tahu akan saat tibanya jemputan itu tiba kepada kita, persediaan itu sewajarnya sangat penting. Kerana Dia turut mengingatkan kita dalam ayat yang sama, bahawa Dia Maha Teliti dalam setiap yang kita kerjakan. Lalu, bagaimana? Mampukah kita untuk menjawab segala persoalanNya di Mahsyar nanti dengan alasan saya belum bersedia, saat Kamu menjemput saya?

"Dan Allah sekali-kali tidak akan menangguhkan (kematian) seseorang apabila datang waktu kematiannya. Dan Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang kamu kerjakan."

[63:11]

Pemergian sahabat tersebut akibat kemalangan jalan raya sedikit sebanyak membuatkan saya kembali berfikir untuk bermuhasabah. Perlunya untuk kita menghargai setiap insan di sekeliling kita, sebelum saat diri ini ataupun mereka turut pergi yang takkan kembali..

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Short Notes: Persona & Doa~

2011-03-05T20:53:00.002+08:00

"People's public personas can be very different behind the closed doors.."

Agak-agaknya, kenapa ya?

Yang pasti, kerana hanya Allah yang tahu. Siapa kita.. Siapa kawan kita.. Siapa semua orang yang sebenarnya..

"Dan Allah mengetahui apa yang kamu rahasiakan dan apa yang kamu lahirkan."

[16:19]

Dan melalui pengalaman, saya pasti semua orang tahu siapa rakan mereka setelah benar-benar mendekati. Pasti ada beza kan? Atau mungkin ada juga tetap sama wherever he or she is..

Oh, habis tentang quote yang ini..

Rasa sangat excited nak share something from buku Aisyah Ummul Mukminin.. Sangat sweet =D

Tarmiza, Baihaqi dan Mundziri ada merekodkan yang Aisyah pernah mendengar suaminya berdoa begini, "Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku hidup sebagai seorang yang miskin. Cabutlah nyawaku dalam keadaan miskin. Kumpulkanlah aku pada hari kiamat bersama golongan yang miskin."

Mendengar doa ini, Aisyah pun bertanya to her beloved husband, "Why are you praying for things like that?"

Maka, Rasulullah saw pun menjawab, "Orang miskin masuk syurga 40 tahun lebih awal dari orang kaya. Wahai Aisyah, do not refuse to help those poor people even though you just have half of the dates to give to them.. Love those poor people, and get close to them because Allah will makes you close to Him in the hereafter.."

Menarik bukan?

Hurm...

Agak-agak, nak tak berdoa dimurahkan rezeki dan diberikan kehidupan yang senang-lenang selepas ni?

@_@

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: The Life~

2011-02-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

It has been few days only. But I don't know why, I feel like it seems to be like years... I miss his voice... Out of sudden, while performing my Isyak prayer just now, my tears burst out. I feel like I have not heard the voice for a long time...

After I finished my prayer, I dialed the numbers. I tried very hard to convince myself to not show up the "crying voice" while calling him. But, it is out of my control when he picked up the phone and said,

"Hi my baby, how are you?"

"I'm fine daddy. How are you then?"

When I heard his voice answering my call cheerfully, I began to smile. And the conversation goes well with many cheerful and exciting stories. Alhamdulillah. =) Allah had eases the way. If my father answered my call with his usual voice, I believe, I'll cry out more loudly.

Somehow, I do believe the reasons of having my hands full is not strong enough. Having this humdrum life in UTP with academic matters and other personal things are not a valid reason to just forget a while about my flesh and blood. And I thanks Allah for giving me the lose heart feeling which had took me back to my parents even though I seems like to have a head like a sieve about them for about two-three days only.

Life So Far

The fifth week of our academic calendar is just about to leave. Seems like times had gone so fast but yet, the progress of things need to completed is not that fast and furious. Sometimes, I can feel that I am to be up to my neck in something for nothing!

However, I do believe the strength will always come through prayers. But when I looked back into Chapter 10 verse 12 of our Holy Quran, seems like I have been pointed out due to my own negligence. Astaghfirullah....

"And when affliction touches a man, he calls on Us, whether lying on his side or sitting or standing; but, when We remove his affliction from him, he passes on as though he had never called on Us on account of an affliction that touched him. Thus is what they do, made fair-seeming to the extravagant."

[10:12]

I still have more weeks to go. And I do believe, with this limited times, I must try to fall on my own feet in order to ensure everything goes well. And I would like to thanks one of my comrades for giving me a song entitled Jangan Menyerah by D' Masiv which helps me to have some motivation and inspiration while doing my tasks. May Allah ease and bless all the way, InshaAllah.. =)

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah
Dapatkan cobaan yang berat
Seakan hidup ini
Tak ada artinya lagi

Syukuri apa yang ada
Hidup adalah anugerah
Tetap jalani hidup ini
Melakukan yang terbaik

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
Kebesaran dan kuasanya
Bagi hambaNya yang sabar
Dan tak kenal Putus asa

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Sharing: The Rise~

2011-02-21T09:37:00.002+08:00

Four weeks had passed and today, the fifth week just started. Questioning myself on what are the things that I've done, absolutely I need to istighfar and keep on renewing my niat. La hau la wala qu wata illa billah... Somehow, I did strayed from the right path without realize it during the moment.

Our Sisters and Brothers

Looking at what currently happen with our sisters and brothers in middle east, somehow I am grateful for being a Malaysian. Living in a harmony country even sometimes there are little bit "unexpected" situations happened, I believe most of our youngsters today never think of any methods in order to maintain the peaceful and tranquility of our country. Most of them keep on making themselves busy with such nonsense matters such as illegal racing, singing competition, partying, miss pageant competition and many other else which somehow did not brings any good impacts towards bringing up our country to what we called as develop country.

I am quite impressed when I know the facts that most of the protesters in Egypt that lead to Hosni Mubarak stepped down as a president are those amongst my age. The spirit and courage that they have in order to change their leader is somehow very amazing since they already think about their future in young age where the other youngsters in the other countries still turn a blind eye into this kind of matter. Those young Egyptians are willing to fight with their tooth and nail in order to ensure there is no more way for Hosni Mubarak to continue leading the country on whatever reasons.

Domino Theory

Not many days after Hosni Mubarak stepped down as president of Egypt and been greeted with a huge outburst of joy by thousands in Cairo's Tahrir Square, more and more countries nearby seem to face almost the same situation.

From e-mail that I received yesterday, the Moroccans are expected to protest nationwide to demand King Mohammed to give more independence to the government and judiciary. As for Libya, 200 dead and 800 wounded as military use automatic weapons to disperse anti-dictator Gaddafi protests and in lieu to this, 50 Libyan Muslim religious leaders have issued an appeal for security forces to stop the killing.

And in Bahrain, protesters occupied symbolic Pearl Square and from the news that I read, the conditions in Bahrain are getting worse since the government had instructed the security force to react towards the protesters. New anti-regime protests also occurred in Algeria. These bloodiest of multiple revolts that currently rocking the Arab world somehow remind me of Domino Theory, which literally is a theory of one event will set off a train of similar events to the nearby area.

Conclusion

What gonna happen next?

Only He knows~

What we gonna do?

Ask ourselves..

Am I gonna be the observer ONLY?

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

Stress? ~

2011-02-14T09:09:00.000+08:00

As I trying to complete my assignments and read few online news this morning, an article entitled More docs to be trained to treat mental depression inside The Star Online did captured my attention. Somehow I feel the article sound funny, but after a few seconds, I had a feeling of sympathy to those people outside that facing this kind of situation.

I cannot avoid the sadness feeling that arise inside me after I realized the reality that more and more of our people had turned their life into "zero value" due to depression and stress. And I do believe, instead of lack of attention from people around them, the needs to have a good financial status had indirectly turned this type of people to become more workaholic and forget about any other essence of life in order to achieve financial freedom. The increasing of living cost nowadays is another factor that had indirectly contribute to this stressful life.

However, after I have some sharing with few of my friends regarding this phenomena, I had realized something about stress and workloads. It is not the workloads that contribute to stress and depression, but stress and depression are the results of someone failure in managing their daily tasks and activities. This is why there is a quote saying that "free times do kills".

Thus, as a khalifah of this world, it is necessary for everyone of us to be able to prioritize our works accordingly in order to avoid any depression due to last minutes work. In addition, as what Allah had mentioned in Chapter 103 of our holy Quran, all of us are surely in loss, accept those who believe and do good, and exhort one another to truth, and exhort one another to patience.

As a conclusion, in order to avoid stress and depression, never ever walk alone in this path without Him, but make sure that we have a close and strong relationship with our Creator, Allah swt. In any situations, in any moments, anytime, everywhere, always remember Him as He had promised, "Remember me, I will remember you".

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~

The Eight Benefits~

2011-02-11T23:47:00.011+08:00

It has been quite a long time after I wrote my last entry.Alhamdulillah, Allah has made it easier when life is hard. All the praise is to Allah, and may all the journey ahead full with His blessings. :)

As for this time, I would like to share about a story of Hatim Al-Asam, one of our Sufi Muslim. He had accompanied his friends, Shaqiq Al-Balkhi for almost thirty years and when it comes to the moment where Shaqiq asked him on what he gained from this thirty years course, he just answered that he gained EIGHT benefits. Sounds weird? Here we go~! :P

When Shaqiq asked him to mention them, below are Hatim's answer:

First,

I observed the creation and saw that everyone had loved one another and passionately desired whom he loved and longed for. Some of the beloved accompany the lover up to the brink of sickness and death and others to the gate of the graveyard. All of them return and leave them alone. No one goes into the coffin with them. I looked into the matter and said to myself: 'The best beloved is that which would enter the tomb with the lover to console him'. I found it to be nothing else then good works, so I took this as my beloved, to illuminate my grave for me and to comfort me in it and not leave me alone.

Second,

I saw people were following their lusts and hastening towards the desires of their souls; I meditated on the saying of Allah (God) "But as for whoever has feared the majesty of his Lord and has refrained his soul from lust, truly the Garden shall be his dwelling place". Convinced that the Quran was true and right, I began to deny my soul (its pleasures) and hurried to combat it and refuse it its passionate desires, until it enjoyed real satisfaction in obedience to Allah the Exhalted.

Third,

I saw that every human being is trying their best to accumulate as much as they can from this world and then holding onto it strongly. I meditated on the Quranic verse "What is with you must vanish; what is with Allah must endure". So I gave freely my worldly possessions for His sake by distributing them among the poor so that it would be my provision in the future with Him the Exalted.

Fourth,

Some people I observed think that their dignity and honour lie with their family and large clans. Others claimed honour and dignity in abundance of wealth and children and they are proud of it. Some believe in honour and power lies by appropriating the wealth of others, doing injustice to them and shedding their blood. Others consider dignity by spending wealth extravagently and in a foolish manner. I meditated on the saying of Allah: "The most honoured of you in the sight of Allah is he who is the most righteous of you". I chose righteousness for myself, convinced that the Quran is right and true and the claims and opinions of those people (at the time) are false and temporary.

Fifth,

I found people slandering each other and speaking ill of one another out of envy of fortune, power and knowledge. I meditated on the saying of Allah: "It is We Who divide their livelihood among them in the life of this world". I realised that the dividing of livelihood is entirely in the hands of Allah since the beginning of time. Therefore I never envied anyone and was satisfied with what Allah had given me.

Sixth,

I saw people becoming enemies of one another for different reasons. I meditated upon the saying of Allah: "Verily Satan is an enemy to you, so treat him as a enemy". I become aware that enmity with anyone but Satan was not permissible.

Seventh,

I saw everyone working hard exhausting themselves in obtaining food and sustenance, tempted by doubts and forbidden things. They degrade themselves in humiliation. I pondered over the saying of Allah: "There is no creature on earth but its sustenance is dependent on Allah". I knew that my livelihood is guaranteed by Allah.

Eigth,

I saw everyone relied on a created thing, some on currency, some on wealth and property, some on trade and craft and some on creatures like themselves. I meditated on the saying of Allah: "And whosoever places his reliance on Allah sufficient is Allah for him. Allah will surely accomplish His purpose. Verily for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion. I therefore placed full trust in Allah (We should all try to do the same). He is sufficient for me and He is the best Disposer of affairs.

After this point, Shaqiq had said something. Can you guess what is it? :D

"May Allah bless you and grant you success. I looked into the Old and New Testament, the Zabur (Psalms of David) and the Quran and have found that the four books revolve around these eight benefits. Whoever works according to them is working according to these four books".

Credit to iluvislam.com

p/s: Jazakallahu khairan to my dear Hafsah for sharing of this story. :)

~berdoa dan terus mengharapkan redha Illahi...~